and in the words you think you say, your meanings come short and fall away
at the end of the day, you just want someone you can take home with you. somehow sleeping with someone else, just in the same bed, leaves you either feeling far less alone or more alone than you've ever been. tonight as i crawl into bed all i want is someone else to be already under and keeping the covers warm. the hgtv channel already set and house hunters quietly floating through the snores of a slumbering companion. i want to be able to have my own space, on my own terms. i come home after nights out and i watch episodes with people buying their first homes or vacation homes or they're relocating to someplace far away. it's not that i way to escape, it's that i feel unable to carve my own space into this world. i feel so alone lately. i feel so unsure of everything.