the world lives for weekends, well i'll watch my weekends bleed right into them..
see the months, they don't matter, it's the days i can't take
brandon and i made up; well we're on speaking terms once again. there's still something bugging me and i don't know what it is. it seems like over night everyone just stepped in, and this doesn't enrage me, but it makes me sad; to know that in 4 days of hell between us, he has 86% of the female population standing in line for him. i guess it just makes me realize that in the end, he won't always need me. he says he does, but in reality, he doesn't. i've been questioning everything between us lately, even if i am the one jepordizing our future together. i guess jepordizing would be past tense. there is no future between us.
sometimes people question themselves way too much. is that just the way that people are? the way the human mind thinks? maybe i've just realized that you live once. you only get one chance. there is no such thing as "making things right". i've already tried that. i already messed things up and tried to "make them right". NEWSFLASH. you can't. they will never be the same and forever unfixable. for that split second when you can't decide, just do it. just do whatever it is. if you think you're falling in love, admit it. if you're enraged, scream your lungs out. don't think twice about anything. "always go with your first instinct". don't fucking sit there and think it over a million times. i'm sick of people holding back and watching the world pass them by and wondering what went wrong. you aren't getting anywhere and you WON'T get anywhere.
don't be torn between silence and violent expression, believing everyone wants to care and cherish someone
anyway, i've been talking to alex non-stop since finch and he's the biggest sweet talker. (top competition to sean who every girl knows can sweet talk ANYONE) he's just so easy-going and it sucks me right in. (ALL the rumors can't be true) winter's ash might be playing at chaser's this friday but even if they aren't i think i'll go with him anyway. lyss n i, so we can hook her up with one of his friends. then her and i can go to the erie county fair on saturday and eat whatever we want ALL DAY LONG.
breathing down my neck you see, is some else's destiny. it makes no different to pretend.
brandon and i made up; well we're on speaking terms once again. there's still something bugging me and i don't know what it is. it seems like over night everyone just stepped in, and this doesn't enrage me, but it makes me sad; to know that in 4 days of hell between us, he has 86% of the female population standing in line for him. i guess it just makes me realize that in the end, he won't always need me. he says he does, but in reality, he doesn't. i've been questioning everything between us lately, even if i am the one jepordizing our future together. i guess jepordizing would be past tense. there is no future between us.
sometimes people question themselves way too much. is that just the way that people are? the way the human mind thinks? maybe i've just realized that you live once. you only get one chance. there is no such thing as "making things right". i've already tried that. i already messed things up and tried to "make them right". NEWSFLASH. you can't. they will never be the same and forever unfixable. for that split second when you can't decide, just do it. just do whatever it is. if you think you're falling in love, admit it. if you're enraged, scream your lungs out. don't think twice about anything. "always go with your first instinct". don't fucking sit there and think it over a million times. i'm sick of people holding back and watching the world pass them by and wondering what went wrong. you aren't getting anywhere and you WON'T get anywhere.
don't be torn between silence and violent expression, believing everyone wants to care and cherish someone
anyway, i've been talking to alex non-stop since finch and he's the biggest sweet talker. (top competition to sean who every girl knows can sweet talk ANYONE) he's just so easy-going and it sucks me right in. (ALL the rumors can't be true) winter's ash might be playing at chaser's this friday but even if they aren't i think i'll go with him anyway. lyss n i, so we can hook her up with one of his friends. then her and i can go to the erie county fair on saturday and eat whatever we want ALL DAY LONG.
breathing down my neck you see, is some else's destiny. it makes no different to pretend.