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Year in Review entry:
January:
how does one describe greatness? my trip to nyc was wonderful. my feelings right now, almost ineffable. if i told you that i tried to write this entry three times already you probably wouldnt believe me. but i did. i kept sitting down wondering how i would describ my seven-day adventure into a big city that had been awaiting my arrival for some time now, and words would not escape me. imagine that. words not escaping me??
February:
these days i dont know what to do with myself
i'm so busy with RA meetings and responsibilities, and then Vagina Monologue every night until too late to feel like doing homework, and working in the office at school, and just blahhhhhhhh
March:
so, i was in davis library, trying to read some poetry books for class (knowing good and well i have a history exam coming up. but oh well), and i walk into one of the cool lil alcoves on the 8th floor that overlook the lil piedmont area or whatever, and proceed to try and read. before i even open a book, this event happens, and i strain to keep from crying. my hands were shaking, i felt like i was about to explode, really. I guess nothing surprises me anymore. anyhow, if you want to know what happened, read the link. it's my way of gettin it out.
April:
i'm missin days like tonight. i was at work and my friend hit me up to see what i was up to, i told her nothing. friday is usually my chill night - go to the jazz club, go to Borders, do some writing, and i'm totally okay with that. it's usually solo, so yeh that's what i was planning on doing. so i told her "nothhing, probably just drive around town" (which is becoming increasingly expensive with the crazy gas prices. you can't just cruise anymore with these prices!) so she says "well, i'll come if you want company" which was totally awesome.
May:
i dont know if i'm jumping to conclusions...butttttttt
haha. it would happen that JUST as i'm about to leave unc, i would meet this incredibly cute and sexy and really nice (and an artist!!) guy here at unc. at a poetry slam.
June:
news: first for real feature (the one in november didn't so much count) down in charleston. it's funny how things workout. i went to this spot, monday night blues, at this jammin coffee shop, and read some pieces and the host loved my work and was soo excited, and offered me a featured slot in july.
July:
so this delana girl....i dont think i know her right now.
some of it is good, some, well i'll have to evaluate it later and let you know.
i'm working about 50something hours a week just to be able to barely pay rent and bills.
i haven't written anything since i met Alex. and that's a bad thing. I was on a roll tryingg to get my manuscript finished before August. Now i've been set back. I mean, meeting Alex has definitely been cool, and i'm getting other people to hang out with, and learning a lot about myself and all, but what ever happened to "business before pleasure" (he used that line on me one night, i was like, are you serious??)
August:
so life has taken a turn for the good...a lot has gone on in the month of july, but alas, August has shown it's beautiful face and saved me in the nick of time. I'm soo glad to be able to kiss july good bye and all of its memories and breathe a little easier knowing everything will be a little bit better now.
September:
i've been really trying to commit to some sort of work-out regimen lately. i always start and then trail off, or something happens to mess up my schedule, and then i use that as an excuse to start over and then starting over always takes like 3 weeks in my book apparently, lol. so yeh. but this time i've been on my little program now for a whole week. the program isn't finished yet, because i'm planning on incorporating swimming very soon - like, maybe next week, even. this week has composed of yoga everyday and some taebo here and some running there, and then some pilates moves every night as well.
October:
I said earlier that death is a scary thing. and it is. but i'm realizing that for me, it's a humanly thing. the only thing we're guaranteed (well, outside of the existance of change) is that we are born to die. it's just the effects on the family that make it hard. the absence. the void. the knowledge that some people will take the pain so much harder than you and there's nothing you can do.
November:
i'm glad i found something i can plug into and push towards to focus on in the midst of all of this madness. and it's keeping me healthy, too. today i did my 4.1 mile loop around downtown charleston (essentially tracing half of the penninsula)
December:
I've decided, I'm definitely going back to Jamaica next summer. I contacted the people i know there, they want me back, I want to be back, and I just wish to be back in the Islands. Now, I just need to start saving up, find funding, and figure out my role there. Figure out what God wants me to do there.
January:
how does one describe greatness? my trip to nyc was wonderful. my feelings right now, almost ineffable. if i told you that i tried to write this entry three times already you probably wouldnt believe me. but i did. i kept sitting down wondering how i would describ my seven-day adventure into a big city that had been awaiting my arrival for some time now, and words would not escape me. imagine that. words not escaping me??
February:
these days i dont know what to do with myself
i'm so busy with RA meetings and responsibilities, and then Vagina Monologue every night until too late to feel like doing homework, and working in the office at school, and just blahhhhhhhh
March:
so, i was in davis library, trying to read some poetry books for class (knowing good and well i have a history exam coming up. but oh well), and i walk into one of the cool lil alcoves on the 8th floor that overlook the lil piedmont area or whatever, and proceed to try and read. before i even open a book, this event happens, and i strain to keep from crying. my hands were shaking, i felt like i was about to explode, really. I guess nothing surprises me anymore. anyhow, if you want to know what happened, read the link. it's my way of gettin it out.
April:
i'm missin days like tonight. i was at work and my friend hit me up to see what i was up to, i told her nothing. friday is usually my chill night - go to the jazz club, go to Borders, do some writing, and i'm totally okay with that. it's usually solo, so yeh that's what i was planning on doing. so i told her "nothhing, probably just drive around town" (which is becoming increasingly expensive with the crazy gas prices. you can't just cruise anymore with these prices!) so she says "well, i'll come if you want company" which was totally awesome.
May:
i dont know if i'm jumping to conclusions...butttttttt
haha. it would happen that JUST as i'm about to leave unc, i would meet this incredibly cute and sexy and really nice (and an artist!!) guy here at unc. at a poetry slam.
June:
news: first for real feature (the one in november didn't so much count) down in charleston. it's funny how things workout. i went to this spot, monday night blues, at this jammin coffee shop, and read some pieces and the host loved my work and was soo excited, and offered me a featured slot in july.
July:
so this delana girl....i dont think i know her right now.
some of it is good, some, well i'll have to evaluate it later and let you know.
i'm working about 50something hours a week just to be able to barely pay rent and bills.
i haven't written anything since i met Alex. and that's a bad thing. I was on a roll tryingg to get my manuscript finished before August. Now i've been set back. I mean, meeting Alex has definitely been cool, and i'm getting other people to hang out with, and learning a lot about myself and all, but what ever happened to "business before pleasure" (he used that line on me one night, i was like, are you serious??)
August:
so life has taken a turn for the good...a lot has gone on in the month of july, but alas, August has shown it's beautiful face and saved me in the nick of time. I'm soo glad to be able to kiss july good bye and all of its memories and breathe a little easier knowing everything will be a little bit better now.
September:
i've been really trying to commit to some sort of work-out regimen lately. i always start and then trail off, or something happens to mess up my schedule, and then i use that as an excuse to start over and then starting over always takes like 3 weeks in my book apparently, lol. so yeh. but this time i've been on my little program now for a whole week. the program isn't finished yet, because i'm planning on incorporating swimming very soon - like, maybe next week, even. this week has composed of yoga everyday and some taebo here and some running there, and then some pilates moves every night as well.
October:
I said earlier that death is a scary thing. and it is. but i'm realizing that for me, it's a humanly thing. the only thing we're guaranteed (well, outside of the existance of change) is that we are born to die. it's just the effects on the family that make it hard. the absence. the void. the knowledge that some people will take the pain so much harder than you and there's nothing you can do.
November:
i'm glad i found something i can plug into and push towards to focus on in the midst of all of this madness. and it's keeping me healthy, too. today i did my 4.1 mile loop around downtown charleston (essentially tracing half of the penninsula)
December:
I've decided, I'm definitely going back to Jamaica next summer. I contacted the people i know there, they want me back, I want to be back, and I just wish to be back in the Islands. Now, I just need to start saving up, find funding, and figure out my role there. Figure out what God wants me to do there.