Strange week
I could handle it if I didn't have to go to another funeral for a while. None of us saw this coming.. Just last week she was calling everyone in Mena making sure the family knew about my situation with HSU and collecting money to help me out. On Christmas, she texted me asking if I'd gotten the box they set up for me the night before. She said she'd call around, because she was excited to find out how much they collected. Two days later my brother calls me while I'm driving home from Hot Springs to tell me she died in Fort Smith while visiting a doctor about some seizures.
It's hard when someone has done a lot for you and you feel like you'll never be able to repay their kindness or their efforts; then you find out suddenly you can't even begin to try. I know I said thank you more than once, but each time I thought of how I would say thank you appropriately afterwards. Now I just feel like I haven't gotten the hance to really tell her just how appreciative I am that she helped me during a time when it was very difficult for me to ask for help. Her efforts were so overwhelmingly touching and I will never forget that kindness. She really did think of others more than she thought of herself.
The only thing I can think now is that I can't mess up. I have to make this happen no matter what, because she was so thrilled about my opportunity to teach in Korea, and she wanted to get the entire family together to help me get there at all costs. This cousin who I only barely knew over the past several years, who I respected and admired so much as a teenager, who I watched struggle over and over with health issues, with having children when it was said that she couldn't, and with raising a family despite her health. The best way I can think of to show my appreciation is to work hard and not take anything for granted.
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It's hard when someone has done a lot for you and you feel like you'll never be able to repay their kindness or their efforts; then you find out suddenly you can't even begin to try. I know I said thank you more than once, but each time I thought of how I would say thank you appropriately afterwards. Now I just feel like I haven't gotten the hance to really tell her just how appreciative I am that she helped me during a time when it was very difficult for me to ask for help. Her efforts were so overwhelmingly touching and I will never forget that kindness. She really did think of others more than she thought of herself.
The only thing I can think now is that I can't mess up. I have to make this happen no matter what, because she was so thrilled about my opportunity to teach in Korea, and she wanted to get the entire family together to help me get there at all costs. This cousin who I only barely knew over the past several years, who I respected and admired so much as a teenager, who I watched struggle over and over with health issues, with having children when it was said that she couldn't, and with raising a family despite her health. The best way I can think of to show my appreciation is to work hard and not take anything for granted.
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