LJ Idol Week 14- The Place That Can Not Be
“Hey baby.
Hey love. Happy Valentines Day.
The same to you, darling. I wish you were here.
Me too, babe, me too. I know we talk every night, but tonight I really want to say something.
Go ahead. I wanted to say how much I miss you. Everyone gets to hold their husbands hand.
Me? I just have to pretend like you would be holding it if you were here.
This breaks my heart.Someone told me that today doesn’t have to suck.
I agree, to an extent. More, I agree with the fact that it doesn’t have to,
but that it always ends up sucking in the worst way.
I wish it didn’t have to suck for you.Mom doesn’t agree with my love for you.
She says I’m holding on to something that can’t ever be.
A place in time that has already happened,
but won't ever happen again.
She doesn’t understand. She never did like you much.
Your mom never did think I was good enough for you,
ever since she saw us making out back in high school.
It wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t get enough of you… I hope you’re doing okay. I know you are.
I am, but I miss you very much. I know you’re thinking about me too, because my ears tingled.
That is the old wives tale, right?
No hun, it’s when your nose itches.
*shakes head* You’re so cute.David says hi.
Hi, son.He’s getting so big. You should see him;
he has your blond hair, and your blue eyes.
He sounds like he’ll get all the ladies,
at least the prettiest one, like I did.He says he misses his daddy more than anything,
and he wants you to come home.
I want to, believe me, I do.He asked me to be his valentine. Of course I said yes!
You both make my heart warm.His birthday is coming up; I know you’re going to be there.
I wouldn’t miss it for the world. He said he wants army men. He said he wants to be just like his daddy.
I hope he turns out just like his mommy.I try to keep him from hurting too much, but sometimes he calls for you at night.
I know, I wish I could heal his pain,
but it’ll get easier soon, I promise.I wish I could hear your voice, but I know it’s not possible. I wish it was.
I’m yelling for you. I want you to hear me. I can’t talk anymore tonight, I’m so tired.
Go to sleep, darling.
I’ll stay here with you until you’ve fallen asleep. I wish you were here to hug me goodnight. Maybe soon.
I love you, Cassidy.I love you, Jake.”
Cassidy stopped talking. She blew her nose, and clutched her covers tight. Another night, another conversation to her husband. She laid down on her side of the bed, with the picture of her husband next to her. Fallen tears streaked her face as she began to breathe slower, falling slowly asleep.
I’m sorry I left you. I’m sorry I died.
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Be sure to check out my LJ Idol Partner this week at http://strryeyedgrrl.livejournal.com/1145910.html
And when voting time comes, be sure to vote both of us!
Hey love. Happy Valentines Day.
The same to you, darling. I wish you were here.
Me too, babe, me too. I know we talk every night, but tonight I really want to say something.
Go ahead. I wanted to say how much I miss you. Everyone gets to hold their husbands hand.
Me? I just have to pretend like you would be holding it if you were here.
This breaks my heart.Someone told me that today doesn’t have to suck.
I agree, to an extent. More, I agree with the fact that it doesn’t have to,
but that it always ends up sucking in the worst way.
I wish it didn’t have to suck for you.Mom doesn’t agree with my love for you.
She says I’m holding on to something that can’t ever be.
A place in time that has already happened,
but won't ever happen again.
She doesn’t understand. She never did like you much.
Your mom never did think I was good enough for you,
ever since she saw us making out back in high school.
It wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t get enough of you… I hope you’re doing okay. I know you are.
I am, but I miss you very much. I know you’re thinking about me too, because my ears tingled.
That is the old wives tale, right?
No hun, it’s when your nose itches.
*shakes head* You’re so cute.David says hi.
Hi, son.He’s getting so big. You should see him;
he has your blond hair, and your blue eyes.
He sounds like he’ll get all the ladies,
at least the prettiest one, like I did.He says he misses his daddy more than anything,
and he wants you to come home.
I want to, believe me, I do.He asked me to be his valentine. Of course I said yes!
You both make my heart warm.His birthday is coming up; I know you’re going to be there.
I wouldn’t miss it for the world. He said he wants army men. He said he wants to be just like his daddy.
I hope he turns out just like his mommy.I try to keep him from hurting too much, but sometimes he calls for you at night.
I know, I wish I could heal his pain,
but it’ll get easier soon, I promise.I wish I could hear your voice, but I know it’s not possible. I wish it was.
I’m yelling for you. I want you to hear me. I can’t talk anymore tonight, I’m so tired.
Go to sleep, darling.
I’ll stay here with you until you’ve fallen asleep. I wish you were here to hug me goodnight. Maybe soon.
I love you, Cassidy.I love you, Jake.”
Cassidy stopped talking. She blew her nose, and clutched her covers tight. Another night, another conversation to her husband. She laid down on her side of the bed, with the picture of her husband next to her. Fallen tears streaked her face as she began to breathe slower, falling slowly asleep.
I’m sorry I left you. I’m sorry I died.
____________________
Be sure to check out my LJ Idol Partner this week at http://strryeyedgrrl.livejournal.com/1145910.html
And when voting time comes, be sure to vote both of us!