dRaMa qUeEn
*big sigh*
NOTE: Another stoopid story about my dramatic life
*whips her head back with hand upon forehead*
yeah.. but.. um...
I've been feeling a lot better. I feel rather accomplished with myself -n- all that I'm striving to achieve. I'm so very very tired of Robbie's crap. I will not allow him to treat me with such disrespect. Last night I sat down -n- told him how I felt -n- that I was going to be moving out as soon as I can find an apartment that is affordable. He said some very hurtful things out of anger.. but I didn't cry! Because Ima toughie like that. *rawr*
As I was blabbing on -n- on.. he gets up.. walks over to me.. and kisses me.. followed by whispers of "I love you".. and such.
*stomps her foot*
NO NO NO
oh.. but yes yes yes
Ima complete fool.. I tell you.. I am.
I fell asleep to lil kisses on my back -n- more whispers. What did I wake up to? He was sleeping on the couch. Once awake.. as we were getting ready for work.. there wasn't one word exchanged.. so distant.. so cold.
Then...
On my break.. he called my cell -n- said that he was going to move to somewhere warm in a year... and I can go with him.. if I want to. *tsk* Y'know... he always has to have one over me. I decide to give him an ultimatum.. he turns the situation around and gives ME an ultimatum. dOrK
The sunsets.. the venues!!!!.. warm rain with double rainbows.. lightning storms.. the rad thrift stores.. my old friends.. the warm sunshine that kisses my skin so beautifully... *sigh* I miss Arizona..
So... he says all of this crap.. that leaves my head spinning. And I just told him that I would talk to him tonight after work. *click*
Confusion...
I'm so confused at the moment. I don't know what to do... how I feel. Which.. to me.. tells me that this isn't working. I don't know how to do this. I like simple things. Please... please can someone just give me the simple things? Is it possible?
We are complete opposites. I mean... he doesn't really like much of the music that I do. Which is very odd. I don't like his ghetto-ish junk. I like art museums.. picnics.. walking the city skylines at night.. thumb wars.. tickle fights.. the zoo.. parks.. swinging on swings.. dancing in my pj's.. staying up all night talking.. driving fast with the windows down while the music makes muh heart a flutter.. mmmmmmmmmmmm
He likes darts... bars... clubs... partying with a buncha jerks. I dunno... lost. Yet there is something about him that keeps me from leaving. Maybe it's the way I can tell him anything.. maybe it's his cute smile. I like how he attempts to do lil things for me. *sighs*
LOST
Someone has to show me the way on this one. I know that isn't possible... but I cannot figure it out. I'm in limbo.. and I cannot stand it!
Ewwwwwwwwwwwwww Janet Jackson is on... and I absolutely HATE this song.... blah
Otay.. I hafta go...
*lil heart*
¤rAi¤
NOTE: Another stoopid story about my dramatic life
*whips her head back with hand upon forehead*
yeah.. but.. um...
I've been feeling a lot better. I feel rather accomplished with myself -n- all that I'm striving to achieve. I'm so very very tired of Robbie's crap. I will not allow him to treat me with such disrespect. Last night I sat down -n- told him how I felt -n- that I was going to be moving out as soon as I can find an apartment that is affordable. He said some very hurtful things out of anger.. but I didn't cry! Because Ima toughie like that. *rawr*
As I was blabbing on -n- on.. he gets up.. walks over to me.. and kisses me.. followed by whispers of "I love you".. and such.
*stomps her foot*
NO NO NO
oh.. but yes yes yes
Ima complete fool.. I tell you.. I am.
I fell asleep to lil kisses on my back -n- more whispers. What did I wake up to? He was sleeping on the couch. Once awake.. as we were getting ready for work.. there wasn't one word exchanged.. so distant.. so cold.
Then...
On my break.. he called my cell -n- said that he was going to move to somewhere warm in a year... and I can go with him.. if I want to. *tsk* Y'know... he always has to have one over me. I decide to give him an ultimatum.. he turns the situation around and gives ME an ultimatum. dOrK
The sunsets.. the venues!!!!.. warm rain with double rainbows.. lightning storms.. the rad thrift stores.. my old friends.. the warm sunshine that kisses my skin so beautifully... *sigh* I miss Arizona..
So... he says all of this crap.. that leaves my head spinning. And I just told him that I would talk to him tonight after work. *click*
Confusion...
I'm so confused at the moment. I don't know what to do... how I feel. Which.. to me.. tells me that this isn't working. I don't know how to do this. I like simple things. Please... please can someone just give me the simple things? Is it possible?
We are complete opposites. I mean... he doesn't really like much of the music that I do. Which is very odd. I don't like his ghetto-ish junk. I like art museums.. picnics.. walking the city skylines at night.. thumb wars.. tickle fights.. the zoo.. parks.. swinging on swings.. dancing in my pj's.. staying up all night talking.. driving fast with the windows down while the music makes muh heart a flutter.. mmmmmmmmmmmm
He likes darts... bars... clubs... partying with a buncha jerks. I dunno... lost. Yet there is something about him that keeps me from leaving. Maybe it's the way I can tell him anything.. maybe it's his cute smile. I like how he attempts to do lil things for me. *sighs*
LOST
Someone has to show me the way on this one. I know that isn't possible... but I cannot figure it out. I'm in limbo.. and I cannot stand it!
Ewwwwwwwwwwwwww Janet Jackson is on... and I absolutely HATE this song.... blah
Otay.. I hafta go...
*lil heart*
¤rAi¤