Curiosity

[lyricae]

As many of you know, I'm in the middle of my second quarter attending college. If this experience has taught me one thing, it's that how I see myself and how others see me is very very different. So now I'm curious :-) If there's anything that you have been wanting to say to me, or anything about me that you've been wondering I invite you now to

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[rmd]

interesting.

much of my full-time college experience was as an "older" student in my mid-20's.

as for what i think of you, you're pretty cool. *ambiguous shrug* you're just this lyricae, you know? :-)

[lyricae]

I'm an "older" student in my early thirties, so I think I understand how you felt ;-) The specific assingment which brought up this question for me was a simple in class workshop in which the teacher asked us to briefly describe our personality. I did so and then we were asked to exchange our paper with someone else in the class and get their opinion of what we had written. The person why read my paper said that she never would have guessed had she not known that I wrote the paper that it was a about me and it got me to thinking. What if the person that I project to the world is not at all the person that I believe I am? I want to know, so that maybe I can get a better understanding of who I am which I can't help but think will make me a better person

[wrog]

how I see myself and how others see me is very very different
I see myself as the most important person in the world.
And I would be very surprised if anyone else were to see me this same way.
Q.E.D.
There is a group of people here in town that I consider to be very good friends. She and I were talking about this and about a couple of incidents that had happened with this group that made me feel very isolated and somewhat alone. She told me that most of the people in the group considered me to be an acquaintance at best and that likely none of them realised that they were my only social circle and my only friends. The difference in viewpoint really staggered me.
I've found it takes me a very long time to actually get to know people.

I've also found that the word "friend" is endlessly malleable; really there's a whole mess of concepts getting conflated there.

• There are people whom I feel comfortable picking up the phone and calling.
• There are people I enjoy hanging out with, who I'd invite to parties and whose parties I'm more