Blast from the past!
Niles inspired me to go through some old entries. There were two interesting ones around this time in 2002 and 2001. I am going to repost the 2001 entry as I didn't get much feedback the first time I posted it. Let's see if 5 years has made all the difference.
Live Journal is just a search for validation.
As a child growing up, did you ever find those songs that touched you for some reason, but you couldn't understand why (Go with me on this; it's 4:30 AM and I am so tired...)? Did you ever have those songs that made you feel acute loneliness, despite the fact that you were just a child? Like, the song was giving you some sort of insight into how life would be when you were older, but you couldn't understand the feeling. I remember it being extremely strange, almost like the longing for adventure and the resolution of knowing that everyplace in the world is the same with the same basic people. It was like standing outside, listening to the night, staring at the stars, and wishing that there were something more. Anyway, I hope you get the idea of what feeling I am trying to evoke. The words aren't flowing as my mind is trying to sleep!
At any rate, at times in my childhood I connected with certain songs that evoked such odd feelings in me that compelled me to lay on my back in bed, lights on, feet and head dangling over the edges, with the song playing over and over. Of course, this is when I mostly had tapes and had to rewind it each time. I don't know why I did this, but I think I was looking for something, some meaning that wasn't staring me directly in the face - as if the song held the answer to the meaning of life or my raison d'etre for which I was always searching, even as a little kid (as I am sure many of you were).
The reason I am thinking of this now is because, tonight, just before I got home (I just got home and this is the first thing I am doing), a song that sort of made me feel that way came on the radio. It was Drive by REM. I might be wrong about this, but I recall purchasing this tape (single) for my sister Val! as a birthday present when we were far younger. The song had just come out, in fact. However, I think I listened to this song more than she did. I wonder if it made her feel the same way. {side note: the CD came out in 1992, so I am not sure if the single came out the same year, but that sounds about right... we would have been 11 or 12}
At any rate, a song which made me feel the way I have described above (but a thousand time more strongly than the REM song )was "Angie Baby." I don't remember right now who it was by and I am too tired to search for it now. {side note: ended up searching for it and it was by hellen reddy} A friend of ours when we were younger (middle school?) had this song on tape. She played it for us once when we were at her house and we could not get enough of it. It literally annoyed her how many times we would rewind it and replay it. She and her mother could not understand our fascination with it. I still don't quite understand it. What was it about the song that made me think there was some mystery there? What made me think there was some greater meaning, something to discover?
Blah, I know this is not coming out well, but I wanted to share it anyway.
Live Journal is just a search for validation.
As a child growing up, did you ever find those songs that touched you for some reason, but you couldn't understand why (Go with me on this; it's 4:30 AM and I am so tired...)? Did you ever have those songs that made you feel acute loneliness, despite the fact that you were just a child? Like, the song was giving you some sort of insight into how life would be when you were older, but you couldn't understand the feeling. I remember it being extremely strange, almost like the longing for adventure and the resolution of knowing that everyplace in the world is the same with the same basic people. It was like standing outside, listening to the night, staring at the stars, and wishing that there were something more. Anyway, I hope you get the idea of what feeling I am trying to evoke. The words aren't flowing as my mind is trying to sleep!
At any rate, at times in my childhood I connected with certain songs that evoked such odd feelings in me that compelled me to lay on my back in bed, lights on, feet and head dangling over the edges, with the song playing over and over. Of course, this is when I mostly had tapes and had to rewind it each time. I don't know why I did this, but I think I was looking for something, some meaning that wasn't staring me directly in the face - as if the song held the answer to the meaning of life or my raison d'etre for which I was always searching, even as a little kid (as I am sure many of you were).
The reason I am thinking of this now is because, tonight, just before I got home (I just got home and this is the first thing I am doing), a song that sort of made me feel that way came on the radio. It was Drive by REM. I might be wrong about this, but I recall purchasing this tape (single) for my sister Val! as a birthday present when we were far younger. The song had just come out, in fact. However, I think I listened to this song more than she did. I wonder if it made her feel the same way. {side note: the CD came out in 1992, so I am not sure if the single came out the same year, but that sounds about right... we would have been 11 or 12}
At any rate, a song which made me feel the way I have described above (but a thousand time more strongly than the REM song )was "Angie Baby." I don't remember right now who it was by and I am too tired to search for it now. {side note: ended up searching for it and it was by hellen reddy} A friend of ours when we were younger (middle school?) had this song on tape. She played it for us once when we were at her house and we could not get enough of it. It literally annoyed her how many times we would rewind it and replay it. She and her mother could not understand our fascination with it. I still don't quite understand it. What was it about the song that made me think there was some mystery there? What made me think there was some greater meaning, something to discover?
Blah, I know this is not coming out well, but I wanted to share it anyway.