And you kissed me like you meant it.
Dear you,
I can't find the right words to say. Even though, I'm really only saying this to myself. I'm witting this to you, but you'll probably never see it because I doubt I'll ever show you. I fall in love with you. More and more every day. No poems, or fancy wittings. I love you and that's all. It's not even hard to say because I know it's true and there is nothing to feel weird about. You were my first love. You will probably be my last. Time passes and passes. I fall harder and harder. Gosh! I don't even know what to say or how to express how much the butterflies are slamming against my chest and my stomach. I start to think about you so, I start to talk about you. So, I think harder and harder and I can hardly see because I'm smiling so big. I don't have dimples, but somehow thinking of you brings them out on my face.
Here I sit with the boy that usually makes me go crazy just being in his presence, but not today. Not today because all I can think of is you. I know this is love. I've always wondered what love would feel like and if I would know when it happened: and I do. This is love. Gosh! This is love! I love every second of it. [And at the same time, it hurts...]
GAHH!
I want nothing more than to stay in your arms. I could have laid there forever and been perfectly content. My fingers between your fingers was just what I needed. Your arms around my shoulders and your hands running through my hair. My head on your chest was the best feeling in the world. Finally I didn't have to daydream about lying in bed with the love of my life, tangled up in each others bodies. Finally my day dreams had become my reality. And then you kissed me. You really, really kissed me. You kissed me like it meant something. You kissed me like you cared and finally there was no doubt in my heart that you did. This was the perfect thing for me. I never thought that I would ever again get to feel your lips pressed against my lips. All I ever wanted was for you to love me; and maybe you still don't love me the way that I love you, but maybe someday, you will. I pray that you will.
I miss you. I was just with you, and I miss you.
Oh goodness. Now I've got myself all worried. I got myself so emotionally involved now. I hope that what I felt, you felt too. I hope that I have not just gone blind again, and I, unknowingly, let you use me...again, like the cliche girl that I am.
Did I just let history repeat itself?
"I would never date her.
I used her."
Please tell me thats not how you still feel. Please tell me that this is not what you have done to me again, after watching how bad it hurt before. I would be so dumb to let that happen again. Please tell me that's not what I just did to myself. Before you spoke those words out of anger, and now we have grown. I hope your heart was in it the way mine was. Is
My fear is saying that you don't see me, but my heart says that this time, it was different. The energy I felt, was different. Because, the way you held me was the best feeling I've had in a long time. Being close to you, in your arms, so loving, so intament. For one night, I was able to forget all of my worries because being there beside you, you made me feel like nothing else in the world mattered. You made me feel safe.
You're probably hoping I didn't feel your body shake, because when you make my body quiver, I hope that you don't notice, but I felt your body do what mine does, every time you get close to me, and I smiled. I loved it because it made me realize, you cared enough to get nervous. That this time, your emotions were finally in it.
When your fingers caress my skin, and my cheek, whispering your words into my ear, feeling your breath against my neck, I melt. Kissing your back and your chest, we drown in intimacy and I never want to catch my breath. This was real. This was so real.
Is so real.
What did I get my heart into again?
Sincerely,
Me.
I can't find the right words to say. Even though, I'm really only saying this to myself. I'm witting this to you, but you'll probably never see it because I doubt I'll ever show you. I fall in love with you. More and more every day. No poems, or fancy wittings. I love you and that's all. It's not even hard to say because I know it's true and there is nothing to feel weird about. You were my first love. You will probably be my last. Time passes and passes. I fall harder and harder. Gosh! I don't even know what to say or how to express how much the butterflies are slamming against my chest and my stomach. I start to think about you so, I start to talk about you. So, I think harder and harder and I can hardly see because I'm smiling so big. I don't have dimples, but somehow thinking of you brings them out on my face.
Here I sit with the boy that usually makes me go crazy just being in his presence, but not today. Not today because all I can think of is you. I know this is love. I've always wondered what love would feel like and if I would know when it happened: and I do. This is love. Gosh! This is love! I love every second of it. [And at the same time, it hurts...]
GAHH!
I want nothing more than to stay in your arms. I could have laid there forever and been perfectly content. My fingers between your fingers was just what I needed. Your arms around my shoulders and your hands running through my hair. My head on your chest was the best feeling in the world. Finally I didn't have to daydream about lying in bed with the love of my life, tangled up in each others bodies. Finally my day dreams had become my reality. And then you kissed me. You really, really kissed me. You kissed me like it meant something. You kissed me like you cared and finally there was no doubt in my heart that you did. This was the perfect thing for me. I never thought that I would ever again get to feel your lips pressed against my lips. All I ever wanted was for you to love me; and maybe you still don't love me the way that I love you, but maybe someday, you will. I pray that you will.
I miss you. I was just with you, and I miss you.
Oh goodness. Now I've got myself all worried. I got myself so emotionally involved now. I hope that what I felt, you felt too. I hope that I have not just gone blind again, and I, unknowingly, let you use me...again, like the cliche girl that I am.
Did I just let history repeat itself?
"I would never date her.
I used her."
Please tell me thats not how you still feel. Please tell me that this is not what you have done to me again, after watching how bad it hurt before. I would be so dumb to let that happen again. Please tell me that's not what I just did to myself. Before you spoke those words out of anger, and now we have grown. I hope your heart was in it the way mine was. Is
My fear is saying that you don't see me, but my heart says that this time, it was different. The energy I felt, was different. Because, the way you held me was the best feeling I've had in a long time. Being close to you, in your arms, so loving, so intament. For one night, I was able to forget all of my worries because being there beside you, you made me feel like nothing else in the world mattered. You made me feel safe.
You're probably hoping I didn't feel your body shake, because when you make my body quiver, I hope that you don't notice, but I felt your body do what mine does, every time you get close to me, and I smiled. I loved it because it made me realize, you cared enough to get nervous. That this time, your emotions were finally in it.
When your fingers caress my skin, and my cheek, whispering your words into my ear, feeling your breath against my neck, I melt. Kissing your back and your chest, we drown in intimacy and I never want to catch my breath. This was real. This was so real.
Is so real.
What did I get my heart into again?
Sincerely,
Me.