I'm still alive. Honest.
::nods and waves:: Hello to all... im not dead, despite that I haven't posted in... what? 2 months? Oi vey. Well, here I am now! Things are going ok I guess.
I think im switching majors to appearal design. The fashion world needs some help, I mean, there are NO fun guys clothes. What-- we get three cuts of shirts (which all look alike, save for the sleeve length), 3 cuts of pants, and colors from neutral to dark. Or if it's not, it's hideously bad. So I think i'd like to see a change, ya? Not spicing up the old, but I have some ideas for entrirely new shapes... ok, so they are kind of fantastic, but I really think it could become high fashion, you know?
I found the entire first season of queer as folk on dvd. oh my god, WONDERFUL show. I love it. It does remind me that I need a boyfriend though... *sigh* Oh, on a similar note, I'm going on my diet again! *laughs* Yeah, actually i'll be working out in a few hours..... maybe in a few months, i'll be able to pull off some looks. Maybe pull off a date too, ya? I just keep thinking how wonderful it would be not to have to find shirts that HIDE or disguise my figure.
Yeah, and I'm going to be confronting my dad soon too about my sexuality. I've really had enough. He's living in a fantasy land that CONSCIOUSLY built - a defense mechanism. That's not healthy for him, or for me. I mean, I said to him a week or so ago:
"Yeah, I really think people find my necklace to be attractive, I mean I get nods and gestures of greating from people that on days I dont wear it that normally pass me by. I mean, I was in the parking garage and someone actually hit on me!"
(Angrilly) "It had better have been a girl"
It's just things like that. Did I mention in my livejournal what he said over diner with my grandparents and a friend of mine a couple of months ago? We were all sitting down, eating dinner. I got up to get another slice of bread, when my dad starting going on about how i'll be married someday. As soon as he did that, there was an aura of tension in that kitchen. A tension between my mom, my friend eric and myself. THEN - get this - he asked my grandparents if they were looking forward to grandchildren! Effing grandchildren for god's sake. Eric and I were so nervous, we nearly started laughing. It's rediculous, and it's bullshit. I should write him a letter (lord knows i'll never talk to him and get a sentence out before he says "I dont want to talk about it"), and in I should should just rip his bigot asshole-self up. But im not. I've got some brochures from pflag... I think im going to email some to him, drop some in his briefcase... then wait for him to come to me. And hopefully not with a knife.
Wish me luck *exhales deeply*
Kyle
I think im switching majors to appearal design. The fashion world needs some help, I mean, there are NO fun guys clothes. What-- we get three cuts of shirts (which all look alike, save for the sleeve length), 3 cuts of pants, and colors from neutral to dark. Or if it's not, it's hideously bad. So I think i'd like to see a change, ya? Not spicing up the old, but I have some ideas for entrirely new shapes... ok, so they are kind of fantastic, but I really think it could become high fashion, you know?
I found the entire first season of queer as folk on dvd. oh my god, WONDERFUL show. I love it. It does remind me that I need a boyfriend though... *sigh* Oh, on a similar note, I'm going on my diet again! *laughs* Yeah, actually i'll be working out in a few hours..... maybe in a few months, i'll be able to pull off some looks. Maybe pull off a date too, ya? I just keep thinking how wonderful it would be not to have to find shirts that HIDE or disguise my figure.
Yeah, and I'm going to be confronting my dad soon too about my sexuality. I've really had enough. He's living in a fantasy land that CONSCIOUSLY built - a defense mechanism. That's not healthy for him, or for me. I mean, I said to him a week or so ago:
"Yeah, I really think people find my necklace to be attractive, I mean I get nods and gestures of greating from people that on days I dont wear it that normally pass me by. I mean, I was in the parking garage and someone actually hit on me!"
(Angrilly) "It had better have been a girl"
It's just things like that. Did I mention in my livejournal what he said over diner with my grandparents and a friend of mine a couple of months ago? We were all sitting down, eating dinner. I got up to get another slice of bread, when my dad starting going on about how i'll be married someday. As soon as he did that, there was an aura of tension in that kitchen. A tension between my mom, my friend eric and myself. THEN - get this - he asked my grandparents if they were looking forward to grandchildren! Effing grandchildren for god's sake. Eric and I were so nervous, we nearly started laughing. It's rediculous, and it's bullshit. I should write him a letter (lord knows i'll never talk to him and get a sentence out before he says "I dont want to talk about it"), and in I should should just rip his bigot asshole-self up. But im not. I've got some brochures from pflag... I think im going to email some to him, drop some in his briefcase... then wait for him to come to me. And hopefully not with a knife.
Wish me luck *exhales deeply*
Kyle