when will it end

[lynzie_holder]

This all seems to be getting to hard...
The poor me mentalitie is back and i feel the worsed
is coming.....
I try to fight it but some thing or someone just pushes me down....down so far some times its hard to see the light...
I once thought it was all over...
I once thought i would never be able to laps into the old ways but as the tires run down my face when i walk behind closed doors i reallise that its back......
when will i stop being depresed....
I don't wont depression any more....
I wont to say i had it once..not i have it
I don't wont to be the one slowly falling apart....
I wont to be the one that helps....
I dont wont to feel weekk when i've been so strong
I ddon't wont to be touchie any more to my gals and boy...
And i really dont wont yasha...my sweet to feel he has to watch what he says....i don't want him to feel he has to pick up the pieces.....
I just feel like things are getting crazy....

I'll be okay with the warmth of a hug and with the stupiditie of my beloved felix that tore up my bed.. ;(

I hope that this is the last time of depressive thoughts im my lj.....

I dont wont to feel this any more.... I wanna wish it all away