Being single sucks!!
updates on me.. Steph is a lying bitch who is dead to me right now.. she broke up me and johnson... and i dont know what to do.. i have been drowning my life out with pain pills and weed.. trying to forget about him. and all we are now are friends with benefits... he told me he could never hate me which made me cry, because it ment a lot. but he wants to be single for now. probably because he wants to go around fucking random girls.. but i just dont know anymore.. and if anyone of you have a problem with anything i am saying right now... keep your comments to yourself i really dont need to hear bitching or more lectures.. im sorry if thisis rude but its my journal.. my venting time.. get over it.. and right now im hurt.. i never thought i could care about someone the same or in this case more than i ever did Kristy.. but I found someone that makes the love I had for her seem like puppy love.. and now they are gone.. the doctor told him he has about a year left to live.. and its tweakin him out.. he doesnt want to be in a relationship and then die... which i could understand. but i am already too attached to him and its going to be hard when he dies anyways.. im just hoping for the best and that the doctor is on some kind of crack and he lives longer than that.. i want to make a family with him!!!!!