the only thing i know is awkaward silence
havent been here in a while... too busy and shit to write in here... I went to the Quabbin yesturday wiht Phil... thats right only phil.. hha it was fun i suppose.. he smokes a lot.. and then i wanted to go to the mall because my aunt gave me $50 for an outfit for graduation.. i wanted dara to come with me cuz i like her but then she wasnt feeling well so she went to sleep.. and then i ended up getting really sad and didnt want to talk to anyone.. i dont know its weird and i cant explain it.. i just hate being alone.. it sucks.. i dont know what i am going to do with myself when im out of school... im gonna fucking go insane.. because sometimes no one will be around and err itll just suck and then things start to get to me and shit.. i odnt know anymore.. but yeah i have to go to the mall sometime soon.. i just dont know when.. i have to work tonight and then dara works tomorrow night and then i work on thursday night and then go to walmart with dee to get osme shit for the field trip for friday.. hmm maybe friday we can go after i get back from the trip... i dont know what to get i was thinking like a little sun dress of some sort or a skirt and a shirt.. but i only have $50.. and thats not that much.. but then i get paid on friday so i will have some more money.. and i have to pay monica back for the dashboard ticket.... i have to get some flip flops as well.. and the cd that i want.. and other fun things to keep me amused... huh... im not really looking forward to this class trip.. i am just gonna eat the entire time.. and listen to cds and i guess we get to tie dye shirt... oo la la... okay bell rang... im out