California.....California......Here we come....
I was really looking forward to seeing Phillip tonight.. but of course.. knowing my luck.. he called out because his car died and he couldn't find a way in to work.. so yeah I think that he quit.. he told Brandy that he cannot work his shifts anymore.. so that either means that he quits or he cannot close anymore.. don't know.. blahh.. it was just a bad time at work anyways.. can never have two good days in a row.. it's like illegal or something.. Melissa's Grandpa passed away today also so she left early.. R.I.P. Sorry to My Lissa... Hang in there... blahh so yeah anyways.. I was going to call Phil tonight when I got home but the OC was on.. hehe silly me I thought that yesturday was Wednesday because we didn't have school on monday so I was all screwed up.. so I didn't miss it... it was a good one.. Theresa is pregnany and it might not be Eddies baby.. ahh.. you know what that means... !! Drama.. more of it... I love that show.. I am really tired and sick of school and yeah well everything... I wanna go somewhere far away.. preferably a beach of some sort.. Florida.. take me to Florida someone please.. Today was the last say to buy prom tickets and well I am not going.. this kind of made it official and it makes me really sad.. but hey what can ya do...
It really sucks having feelings for someone and they are so clueless to not know.. and at the same time there is nothing that you can do about it because you knwo that they have feelings for someone else because they have told you on many occasions.. but then they have told others that they have feelings for you.. kind of leaves you in an awkaward position.. this also goes along with my theory about how all the good guys are either taken.. or gay... blahh.. but this guy in particular isn't exactly taken but in a way is.. no one will understand this probably and that's fine because it doesn't need to be explained... I just think I need to give up on guys and wait for one to fall in my lap... make it a little more obvious and then take it from there.. I don't even want anything serious right now.. just someone to go out with and have some fun... and go to riverside and to the movies and Cuddling.. because that is the greatest thing in the whole wide world... blahh... I cannot hang out with this guy anymore.. this was a given though.. all of my friends called it and so did I... but hey you can't stop feelings.. which fucking sucks... eh.. god damn... I need to get some sleep I have to keep erasing because I can't type tonight.. so Yeah good night..
It really sucks having feelings for someone and they are so clueless to not know.. and at the same time there is nothing that you can do about it because you knwo that they have feelings for someone else because they have told you on many occasions.. but then they have told others that they have feelings for you.. kind of leaves you in an awkaward position.. this also goes along with my theory about how all the good guys are either taken.. or gay... blahh.. but this guy in particular isn't exactly taken but in a way is.. no one will understand this probably and that's fine because it doesn't need to be explained... I just think I need to give up on guys and wait for one to fall in my lap... make it a little more obvious and then take it from there.. I don't even want anything serious right now.. just someone to go out with and have some fun... and go to riverside and to the movies and Cuddling.. because that is the greatest thing in the whole wide world... blahh... I cannot hang out with this guy anymore.. this was a given though.. all of my friends called it and so did I... but hey you can't stop feelings.. which fucking sucks... eh.. god damn... I need to get some sleep I have to keep erasing because I can't type tonight.. so Yeah good night..