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Wow... so I wake up at fucking 7:45am after I go to sleep at 4:30am just to go with her to her family "gathering" at her grandmother's grave (who died a year and 1-2 weeks ago).. Yep.. I'm running on 4 hours and xx minutes of sleep JUST for her because I love her... soooo.. Her father asked everyone to be there at 8.. 8:10 rolls around and we haven't left yet.. My car isn't driveable right now as I need a new alternator so we couldn't leave but we have to wait on her brother to leave.. whom hops out of the bathroom at 8:10 dressed in night clothes... so her other brother goes to leave at 8:12 and I'm like "lets just go with him..." i guess this statement gives her a right to be a moron.. "lets just wait on abel"... hmm so lets wait another 10 minutes when you wake me up at 7:45 to be there at 8am.. So I say "You woke me up to be late?".. her reply "if you dont wanna go you don't have to"... lol that took the cake as stupid things to say recently.. I'm gonna wake up after only 4 hours and some minutes of sleep on a HOLIDAY (nobody here working today) just cuz I don't wanna go and support the woman I love.. yeahhhhh.. so that pissed me off extremely badly and I said "shut the fuck up and don't say anything else or I won't go".. needless to say she chose the latter and opened her mouth again.. after a few exchanges of censored words later, she said it once more and I told her she was a bitch and that she ruined me going and being there with them.. in fact, I'm still fucking tired of this family.. tired of her. She's completely unappreciative, not to mention she doesn't use her head when she says stuff.. she acts like shes SO independent and unneeding most the time it makes me laugh cuz she's quite the opposite and extremely weak when it comes to emotions.. but we're not really gonna go there right now.. I just like to point out that I get up that fucking early and get no fucking sleep (which was my fault, but none the less I wake up anyways for her) and she pulls this shit on me then claims I don't wanna go... WHY THE FUCK WOULD I WAKE UP IF I DIDN'T WANNA GO HMMMMMMMMMMMMM? Christ... God damn I hate fucking people sometimes. I get so fucking disappointed in them and I'm really getting tired of her actions. If she doesn't shape up we will grow apart. I know because I've fucking been there and I know what will happen..
It's funny cuz she kinda pulled something similar on me last night.. what happened last night? I find out her father bought her brother a car.. Why would this make me mad? Welllll... Annie gave her father 200 bucks because her mom kept coming to her for money.. the money well.. I initially thought it was just to help them out.. but it turns out Annie said her mom said to give them money so her dad stops talking about her...? What the fuck seriously? Give me money and I'll shut up about you? Wow. The irony is they try to act like such a good christian Asian family but they're dysfunctional as hell and everyone continues to do things against each other in multiple ways.. They constantly talk about each other so much and conspire against one another. They really don't seem like a family until something big happens or they have a get together, then everyone acts like they're perfect in front of each other. It's ridiculous as hell.
Anyways.. Annie gives her father 200 to shut him up because he used to constantly bother her before (annoying cynical Asian parent stereotype here).. So I come here and he shuts up a while but starts talking about her again because she's living with a guy unmarried and he's not Asian. Her father is a racist, whether or not he chooses to believe it or not.. that's the case. Me being white has caused negative impacts on his opinions, but then again he was always negative as hell to begin with, the only difference is he won't say shit in front of me and only says stuff behind his daughters back. God these Asians piss me off so much when it comes to this.. They all try to act like they're AMAZING Christians but they gossip so much, even about their own kids... sisters.. brothers.. neighbors.. friends.. they constantly talk about each other! It's kinda ridiculous.. If one thing happens everyone is talking about it.. They're so worried about their reputation it's hilarious also.. Last time I checked, talking about people and having pride are sins. But hey, don't tell them that.. because they're not true Christians to begin with. They knowingly sin constantly and they have no regard for god when they do so. When it comes to fessing up theres always an excuse.. gotta love denial =]
Okay so back on track.. Annie gave her dad 200 bucks to shut him up.. and in return......... he buys her brother (22 years old, "married" quotations because of bullshit) whom doesn't work much.. has a dead end job.. has a child and an nonworking girlfriend.. I won't call her his wife because they're not married officially.. they chose to stay unmarried legally to reap benefits from the state of California.. like medicare and medicaid. They had a child already which they 100% relied on the state to pay for.. Nice ain't it? Let's go ahead and fuck and have a child then rely on everyone else to pay for it because I'm a lazy fuck who feels I'm too good to work to pay for my own child. Oh god.. the mother of that child his "culture wife" is a manipulative bitch and a half. She and him together make quite a dysfunctional married that is based on multiple errors and stupidity.. do I have a right to judge them and their married? Yes. Because they know they're not LEGALLY married and they purposely did it to receive benefits from the state. A non-working single mother gets some easy benefits in California... So.. Annie's 200 bucks went straight to this fucker's car. The funny part is he never needed a car to begin with! He already had his non-working wife's car to drive around when needed and to drive to work. So... he never needed a damn car to begin with, but he guilted his dad into buying him one.. I guess if you truly love your married model christian perfect hmong son then you buy them cars and buy them houses and constantly give them money because they're too lazy and stupid to find a proper LEGAL wife.. let alone be responsible themselves. This guy really takes the cake as a lazy fuck who twist everything to be his way and tries to act like he's high and mighty. He tries to act like the head of the household and act like he's such an amazing christian. It truly makes me laugh and makes me sick to my stomach to see the way he acts.. it really pisses me off because I have to deal with it daily.. and knowing annie works 60 hours a week and she gives 200 to her dad which went right to her 22 year old brother's car whom never needed it to begin with... fucked up aint it?
Moving along.. what pisses me off most about last night and a convo I had with Annie was I did indeed insult her brother and say hes a manipulative asshole and that if anyone needed or deserved a car it was her.. and he had no right fucking everyone over like that.. anyways I was like "I want to move out now, lets go.." so she claims thats fucking her brother over because he cannot afford to live her.. How's that my problem? It's not. So I tell her he constantly fucks everyone here over and he lies to cover his tracks.. he's an egoist tool.. But anyways I called him a moron and a lying ass more then once and I guess annie took offense to it then said we're not gonna fuck him over like I fucked over my best friend.........
That line made me hit the piss off button pretty quickly. To begin with, I left Ohio and dropped everything to move here and be with her.. I don't think I fucked my friend over.. He understood the situation and I even PAID him and helped him find a new roommate somewhat.. I gave him a ton of ideas and places to look.. But besides that.. she has guts to even say that? TALK ABOUT FUCKING UNAPPRECIATIVE... God damn that pissed me off so bad. I did it for HER in the fucking first place and she says something fucking stupid like that.. ".."Like you fucked your best friend over.." That really takes the cake as alltime stupid responses from Annie throughout my time being in California. I actually really thought about leaving her after she said that due to the fact that it shows me she doesn't appreciate me and to even ATTEMPT to use that against me just shows me it wasn't worth doing it for her to begin with. IT WAS FOR HER and she tries to use it on me... "I'm not gonna fuck over my brother like you fucked your best friend over" .. ultimate statement to piss someone off when you do it for THEM.
Just writing this whole entry is really making me mad and upset. She's fading from my conscious and the more stuff she says and does the less I want to be here.. She pushes me much more I'm gone.. I don't think she realize I really will leave her. I honestly won't put up with that shit much more.. I said stuff about her brother that was true and she even knew it.. if someone said stuff about my sister that I knew was true I wouldn't say anything... but if they said it excessively I would ask them to stop.. I wouldn't automatically say something incredibly hurtful to them in attempt to hurt them.. Especially when they leave their lives as they know it for me.. Lots of irony there.. I'm done doing people favors.. I'm so fucking over helping people.. I'm beginning to think my life in cali has been a mistake and I may need to haul my shit all the way back to ohio again and start over once more *sigh*.. Why do people have to be so fucking stupid.. can't I just have someone who uses their head and appreciates me for once? -.-
It's funny cuz she kinda pulled something similar on me last night.. what happened last night? I find out her father bought her brother a car.. Why would this make me mad? Welllll... Annie gave her father 200 bucks because her mom kept coming to her for money.. the money well.. I initially thought it was just to help them out.. but it turns out Annie said her mom said to give them money so her dad stops talking about her...? What the fuck seriously? Give me money and I'll shut up about you? Wow. The irony is they try to act like such a good christian Asian family but they're dysfunctional as hell and everyone continues to do things against each other in multiple ways.. They constantly talk about each other so much and conspire against one another. They really don't seem like a family until something big happens or they have a get together, then everyone acts like they're perfect in front of each other. It's ridiculous as hell.
Anyways.. Annie gives her father 200 to shut him up because he used to constantly bother her before (annoying cynical Asian parent stereotype here).. So I come here and he shuts up a while but starts talking about her again because she's living with a guy unmarried and he's not Asian. Her father is a racist, whether or not he chooses to believe it or not.. that's the case. Me being white has caused negative impacts on his opinions, but then again he was always negative as hell to begin with, the only difference is he won't say shit in front of me and only says stuff behind his daughters back. God these Asians piss me off so much when it comes to this.. They all try to act like they're AMAZING Christians but they gossip so much, even about their own kids... sisters.. brothers.. neighbors.. friends.. they constantly talk about each other! It's kinda ridiculous.. If one thing happens everyone is talking about it.. They're so worried about their reputation it's hilarious also.. Last time I checked, talking about people and having pride are sins. But hey, don't tell them that.. because they're not true Christians to begin with. They knowingly sin constantly and they have no regard for god when they do so. When it comes to fessing up theres always an excuse.. gotta love denial =]
Okay so back on track.. Annie gave her dad 200 bucks to shut him up.. and in return......... he buys her brother (22 years old, "married" quotations because of bullshit) whom doesn't work much.. has a dead end job.. has a child and an nonworking girlfriend.. I won't call her his wife because they're not married officially.. they chose to stay unmarried legally to reap benefits from the state of California.. like medicare and medicaid. They had a child already which they 100% relied on the state to pay for.. Nice ain't it? Let's go ahead and fuck and have a child then rely on everyone else to pay for it because I'm a lazy fuck who feels I'm too good to work to pay for my own child. Oh god.. the mother of that child his "culture wife" is a manipulative bitch and a half. She and him together make quite a dysfunctional married that is based on multiple errors and stupidity.. do I have a right to judge them and their married? Yes. Because they know they're not LEGALLY married and they purposely did it to receive benefits from the state. A non-working single mother gets some easy benefits in California... So.. Annie's 200 bucks went straight to this fucker's car. The funny part is he never needed a car to begin with! He already had his non-working wife's car to drive around when needed and to drive to work. So... he never needed a damn car to begin with, but he guilted his dad into buying him one.. I guess if you truly love your married model christian perfect hmong son then you buy them cars and buy them houses and constantly give them money because they're too lazy and stupid to find a proper LEGAL wife.. let alone be responsible themselves. This guy really takes the cake as a lazy fuck who twist everything to be his way and tries to act like he's high and mighty. He tries to act like the head of the household and act like he's such an amazing christian. It truly makes me laugh and makes me sick to my stomach to see the way he acts.. it really pisses me off because I have to deal with it daily.. and knowing annie works 60 hours a week and she gives 200 to her dad which went right to her 22 year old brother's car whom never needed it to begin with... fucked up aint it?
Moving along.. what pisses me off most about last night and a convo I had with Annie was I did indeed insult her brother and say hes a manipulative asshole and that if anyone needed or deserved a car it was her.. and he had no right fucking everyone over like that.. anyways I was like "I want to move out now, lets go.." so she claims thats fucking her brother over because he cannot afford to live her.. How's that my problem? It's not. So I tell her he constantly fucks everyone here over and he lies to cover his tracks.. he's an egoist tool.. But anyways I called him a moron and a lying ass more then once and I guess annie took offense to it then said we're not gonna fuck him over like I fucked over my best friend.........
That line made me hit the piss off button pretty quickly. To begin with, I left Ohio and dropped everything to move here and be with her.. I don't think I fucked my friend over.. He understood the situation and I even PAID him and helped him find a new roommate somewhat.. I gave him a ton of ideas and places to look.. But besides that.. she has guts to even say that? TALK ABOUT FUCKING UNAPPRECIATIVE... God damn that pissed me off so bad. I did it for HER in the fucking first place and she says something fucking stupid like that.. ".."Like you fucked your best friend over.." That really takes the cake as alltime stupid responses from Annie throughout my time being in California. I actually really thought about leaving her after she said that due to the fact that it shows me she doesn't appreciate me and to even ATTEMPT to use that against me just shows me it wasn't worth doing it for her to begin with. IT WAS FOR HER and she tries to use it on me... "I'm not gonna fuck over my brother like you fucked your best friend over" .. ultimate statement to piss someone off when you do it for THEM.
Just writing this whole entry is really making me mad and upset. She's fading from my conscious and the more stuff she says and does the less I want to be here.. She pushes me much more I'm gone.. I don't think she realize I really will leave her. I honestly won't put up with that shit much more.. I said stuff about her brother that was true and she even knew it.. if someone said stuff about my sister that I knew was true I wouldn't say anything... but if they said it excessively I would ask them to stop.. I wouldn't automatically say something incredibly hurtful to them in attempt to hurt them.. Especially when they leave their lives as they know it for me.. Lots of irony there.. I'm done doing people favors.. I'm so fucking over helping people.. I'm beginning to think my life in cali has been a mistake and I may need to haul my shit all the way back to ohio again and start over once more *sigh*.. Why do people have to be so fucking stupid.. can't I just have someone who uses their head and appreciates me for once? -.-