depression
You have a very sad situation on your hands and it
goes by the title of lonely depression. Whether
you're shy or just not accepted you need
somebody. I'd have to guess your personality
makes you very reserved and reclusive. Your
aloof nature may drive potential friends away
or make you invisible. You don't like crowds or
social events much either. Although it goes
against everything you are, try to put yourself
out there. Here are some friend making tips.
Since you don't do groups go up to a solitary
person and say hello afterwhich start a
conversation. Another idea is to display your
(appropriate)interests in a public area and
chances are others with similar interests will
come and talk to you. Give it a try and watch
the friends appear!