Introspection
I've been trying to think of what to say for the end of 2009 and the start of not only a new year, but a new decade. It's a little mind-boggling.
Looking back, it feels easy to see it as a negative year. I haven't had a solid job for the entire year, since graduating from Gnomon. I'm still living at home when I want to be on my own, able to support myself. And scariest of all, I have no idea where I'm going to be this same time next year, or when I'll get the break I need; the ability to head out on my own. The economy's been bad and that affects the people around me as well as myself.
And yet, when I think about it...in the end, I really have lots to be thankful for. I haven't had a solid job, but I also haven't gone more than two months this year without working. I have plenty of family and friends to support me. I get along well with my family and don't feel trapped or pushed around in my own house. I've been healthy and uninjured, and none of my closest family and friends have gotten badly sick or injured. I have practically every luxury I could ask for. I've grown in my art a lot this year, and have the confidence to keep going with it. The problems I've faced, I've been able to overcome. I helped successfully complete a HUGE LJ RP that I made a bunch of new friends through.
And looking back over this whole decade, from 2000 to now? It's crazy how much has happened! I've completed high school, college and a graduate program in that time. I've gotten to visit a few places overseas. I've lived both at home and away from home. I've gotten through tough jobs, figured out how best to manage conventions, and met some artists that I really look up to. I've started a webcomic and kept it up consistently over three years. I can't even figure out how many awesome people I've met just from getting involved in the KH fandom. And I've seen my family and friends accomplish great things, too.
So while I am still scared about what this new year and new decade will bring, I think that in the long run, things will turn out all right. I hope everyone out there thinks about the long run...because I believe it'll turn out all right for you, too.
Looking back, it feels easy to see it as a negative year. I haven't had a solid job for the entire year, since graduating from Gnomon. I'm still living at home when I want to be on my own, able to support myself. And scariest of all, I have no idea where I'm going to be this same time next year, or when I'll get the break I need; the ability to head out on my own. The economy's been bad and that affects the people around me as well as myself.
And yet, when I think about it...in the end, I really have lots to be thankful for. I haven't had a solid job, but I also haven't gone more than two months this year without working. I have plenty of family and friends to support me. I get along well with my family and don't feel trapped or pushed around in my own house. I've been healthy and uninjured, and none of my closest family and friends have gotten badly sick or injured. I have practically every luxury I could ask for. I've grown in my art a lot this year, and have the confidence to keep going with it. The problems I've faced, I've been able to overcome. I helped successfully complete a HUGE LJ RP that I made a bunch of new friends through.
And looking back over this whole decade, from 2000 to now? It's crazy how much has happened! I've completed high school, college and a graduate program in that time. I've gotten to visit a few places overseas. I've lived both at home and away from home. I've gotten through tough jobs, figured out how best to manage conventions, and met some artists that I really look up to. I've started a webcomic and kept it up consistently over three years. I can't even figure out how many awesome people I've met just from getting involved in the KH fandom. And I've seen my family and friends accomplish great things, too.
So while I am still scared about what this new year and new decade will bring, I think that in the long run, things will turn out all right. I hope everyone out there thinks about the long run...because I believe it'll turn out all right for you, too.