I wanted to put this up, so It wouldn't be lost -explaining to my service writer and friend
Adrian Vigneault August 23 at 11:26am
I thought I would fill you in, I think you deserve to know because my personal life effects my work life.
I was dating my ex-girlfriend destinee since highschool for over 5 years. she ended up moving back to missouri last year to live with her family (and partily to do with me cause we broke up). we ended up getting back together and going on the cruise this summer and it was great. I told her after though that I couldn't do the distance thing anymore and broke it off, plus I didn't want to live in missouri. I cut contact with her and tried dating other people. It didn't work. Andre this girl is the soul reason I;m not into heavy drugs anymore, and the reason I turned my life around, got into cars and everything. I realized that without her I probobly wouldn't be alive right now. I am also i really indecisive person and was affraid of commitment. but the one thing I truely know 100 percent in my heart Is that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her. I realized its not your schooling, or where you work that matters in life. its the people you share your life with and love.
So a few weeks ago I wrote destinee a letter telling her all of this. when she got it she called me. I found out she's dating some other guy and she likes him alot. she also told me she still has feelings for me but has no way of knowing if I was serious. mostly because she knew about my commitment issues and I go back and fourth alot. She said she needed to really think about it and needed time. I sent 2 more letters last week explaining that I can't liive my life without her and I feel empty inside. she was the only reason I am alive today, and honestly I can't keep living without her. I contacted my buddy's girlfriend who still talks to her. she dosn't even like me that much but then realized I was dead serious about her. she told me words and letters mean nothing unless you act on it. I told her she was right and that I was going to go suprise her without any notice and drive to missouri. then I thought to myself that destinee needs to truely know I am serious, and I already knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. So i did what I known I should of done a long time ago. I bought her a ring. (it was a special order so i had it overnighted, hence why I told you I had to leave work as soon as my mom called when it was delivered) it has a blue saphire on each side of the diamond because it reminded me most of her beautiful blue eyes, and I didn't want her to have some plain average ring because she is so special to me.
as soon as it came in I left and drove 15 hours straight to missouri. I got there at 5am our time (crosses a time zone) and first went to her moms house. (she stays at her dads) I rang the doorbell no knowing if she would slam the door in my face and tell me to leave or invite me in. she opened the door and hugged me and told me she knew I would come. she invited me in and told me about destinee's boyfriend. hes 33 years old, twice divorced and has daughters, the oldest is 14. mind you destinee is 22. she knew about the first letter and said to go see destinee at her work because she gets off at 12 and being a friday you can't track her down after. So I did and she was absolutly floored. apperently she was just talking to her co-workers about me and they said if I really ment what I said I would be here right now... then here I came and walked though the door.
I helped her finish up at work and she was nervous about what her boyfriend would think because they already made plans that night and for saturday. she went and talked to him and toild me that we could hang out friday but she was gonna go hang out with him friday night because he was freaking out. but all day saturday could be us. so we sat and talked at her mom's house. and she said the same thing on how she wants to believe me, but she really likes her bf now, and doesn't know if I was serious or not even if I just did drive a thousand miles across the US to see her. ( I could tell she put up and emotional wall so she wouldn't let her feelings get hurt again) then I told her how I felt. I spilled my guts. then I told her that I knew she needed time and I would wait forever for her. I didn't need an answer now. And I proposed to her. at that point I could tell I took down that wall she had up. and it was no longer like talking to an aquaintence but it was like talking to the destinee I know and love.
we hung out untill that evening and she went to hang out with her bf and I drove to her dad's house and talked to him. he said what destinee's decision is, its hers. he said he had no problem with me at all and only she can decide.
I then got a phone call from destinee and she was crying. her boyfriend I think assumed because she was with him that night that saturday was back on and I was out of the picture. he got upset and told her that she needed to decide by 5am if she wanted to be with him or me. then she said she would call me back
she called back around 1 am. she told me her plan was to go to his house at 5 am because she didn't want to end her relationship this way. but she also said she still needs time to think about me. she told me that she wasn't going to say she broke it off with me but just show up and leave it at that. then said she would be by at 4 am to say goodbye to me.
she came at 4 and we talked. she went and told me that she has no intentions of leading me on. she's more worried that my feelings will fade for her over time because it might be a few months before she decides. BUT she also said with that she does ultimatly know what she's going to do but needs time to do it and didn't want her relationship with her boyfriend to end this way. I told her I would wait as long as it takes because she's all I have left in life. I also told her that I promised myself I would only give one ring in my lifetime and it would only be to my true love and soulmate. she said she was sorry about me having to leave that saturday, but I knew she had to do what she had to do. we both have always understood eachother even without having to speak the words. at that point I told her I was sorry, but I had to do it. and we kissed. and andre let me tell you, at that point I knew that the entire trip was worth it. she said she was really happy and glad I came. I explained to her that I didn't only do it for her. I HAD to do it for me. I had to know I did absolutly everything in my power to show her that I love her untill the day I die. she also understood this. we said our goodbyes and she left.
I walked back inside her moms house and her mom was there to hug me and told me she hopes and prays everything will work out in the end. I left yesterday morning and drove 1000mi back home in 13.5 hours. and here I am now.
destinee told me to stay strong, keep a smile on my face, work hard and to think positive thoughts. she said that smiling and thinking positive does work. then she said I have to work had and save money because I'm gonna need to be ready to go there when the time is right. So that's what I'm going to do, because I know I won't ever love somebody else as much as I love her, or go through as many life changing events with any body else. she made me who I am today. right before we said goodbye I told her I think of this as a test of our love, and we both agreed if we can both pass it we can do anything.
so that's my story so far, and I knew I had to write to you because If I told you at work I wouldn't of been able to fight back my tears. I know it might of been more then you wanted to know but sometimes love makes you do some crazy things sometimes. ever wake up after driving halfway across the US and wonder what the hell you are doing there? haha. I went there without knowing what would happen, and I honestly think it ended up making all the difference.
I'll see you at work on monday
I thought I would fill you in, I think you deserve to know because my personal life effects my work life.
I was dating my ex-girlfriend destinee since highschool for over 5 years. she ended up moving back to missouri last year to live with her family (and partily to do with me cause we broke up). we ended up getting back together and going on the cruise this summer and it was great. I told her after though that I couldn't do the distance thing anymore and broke it off, plus I didn't want to live in missouri. I cut contact with her and tried dating other people. It didn't work. Andre this girl is the soul reason I;m not into heavy drugs anymore, and the reason I turned my life around, got into cars and everything. I realized that without her I probobly wouldn't be alive right now. I am also i really indecisive person and was affraid of commitment. but the one thing I truely know 100 percent in my heart Is that I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her. I realized its not your schooling, or where you work that matters in life. its the people you share your life with and love.
So a few weeks ago I wrote destinee a letter telling her all of this. when she got it she called me. I found out she's dating some other guy and she likes him alot. she also told me she still has feelings for me but has no way of knowing if I was serious. mostly because she knew about my commitment issues and I go back and fourth alot. She said she needed to really think about it and needed time. I sent 2 more letters last week explaining that I can't liive my life without her and I feel empty inside. she was the only reason I am alive today, and honestly I can't keep living without her. I contacted my buddy's girlfriend who still talks to her. she dosn't even like me that much but then realized I was dead serious about her. she told me words and letters mean nothing unless you act on it. I told her she was right and that I was going to go suprise her without any notice and drive to missouri. then I thought to myself that destinee needs to truely know I am serious, and I already knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. So i did what I known I should of done a long time ago. I bought her a ring. (it was a special order so i had it overnighted, hence why I told you I had to leave work as soon as my mom called when it was delivered) it has a blue saphire on each side of the diamond because it reminded me most of her beautiful blue eyes, and I didn't want her to have some plain average ring because she is so special to me.
as soon as it came in I left and drove 15 hours straight to missouri. I got there at 5am our time (crosses a time zone) and first went to her moms house. (she stays at her dads) I rang the doorbell no knowing if she would slam the door in my face and tell me to leave or invite me in. she opened the door and hugged me and told me she knew I would come. she invited me in and told me about destinee's boyfriend. hes 33 years old, twice divorced and has daughters, the oldest is 14. mind you destinee is 22. she knew about the first letter and said to go see destinee at her work because she gets off at 12 and being a friday you can't track her down after. So I did and she was absolutly floored. apperently she was just talking to her co-workers about me and they said if I really ment what I said I would be here right now... then here I came and walked though the door.
I helped her finish up at work and she was nervous about what her boyfriend would think because they already made plans that night and for saturday. she went and talked to him and toild me that we could hang out friday but she was gonna go hang out with him friday night because he was freaking out. but all day saturday could be us. so we sat and talked at her mom's house. and she said the same thing on how she wants to believe me, but she really likes her bf now, and doesn't know if I was serious or not even if I just did drive a thousand miles across the US to see her. ( I could tell she put up and emotional wall so she wouldn't let her feelings get hurt again) then I told her how I felt. I spilled my guts. then I told her that I knew she needed time and I would wait forever for her. I didn't need an answer now. And I proposed to her. at that point I could tell I took down that wall she had up. and it was no longer like talking to an aquaintence but it was like talking to the destinee I know and love.
we hung out untill that evening and she went to hang out with her bf and I drove to her dad's house and talked to him. he said what destinee's decision is, its hers. he said he had no problem with me at all and only she can decide.
I then got a phone call from destinee and she was crying. her boyfriend I think assumed because she was with him that night that saturday was back on and I was out of the picture. he got upset and told her that she needed to decide by 5am if she wanted to be with him or me. then she said she would call me back
she called back around 1 am. she told me her plan was to go to his house at 5 am because she didn't want to end her relationship this way. but she also said she still needs time to think about me. she told me that she wasn't going to say she broke it off with me but just show up and leave it at that. then said she would be by at 4 am to say goodbye to me.
she came at 4 and we talked. she went and told me that she has no intentions of leading me on. she's more worried that my feelings will fade for her over time because it might be a few months before she decides. BUT she also said with that she does ultimatly know what she's going to do but needs time to do it and didn't want her relationship with her boyfriend to end this way. I told her I would wait as long as it takes because she's all I have left in life. I also told her that I promised myself I would only give one ring in my lifetime and it would only be to my true love and soulmate. she said she was sorry about me having to leave that saturday, but I knew she had to do what she had to do. we both have always understood eachother even without having to speak the words. at that point I told her I was sorry, but I had to do it. and we kissed. and andre let me tell you, at that point I knew that the entire trip was worth it. she said she was really happy and glad I came. I explained to her that I didn't only do it for her. I HAD to do it for me. I had to know I did absolutly everything in my power to show her that I love her untill the day I die. she also understood this. we said our goodbyes and she left.
I walked back inside her moms house and her mom was there to hug me and told me she hopes and prays everything will work out in the end. I left yesterday morning and drove 1000mi back home in 13.5 hours. and here I am now.
destinee told me to stay strong, keep a smile on my face, work hard and to think positive thoughts. she said that smiling and thinking positive does work. then she said I have to work had and save money because I'm gonna need to be ready to go there when the time is right. So that's what I'm going to do, because I know I won't ever love somebody else as much as I love her, or go through as many life changing events with any body else. she made me who I am today. right before we said goodbye I told her I think of this as a test of our love, and we both agreed if we can both pass it we can do anything.
so that's my story so far, and I knew I had to write to you because If I told you at work I wouldn't of been able to fight back my tears. I know it might of been more then you wanted to know but sometimes love makes you do some crazy things sometimes. ever wake up after driving halfway across the US and wonder what the hell you are doing there? haha. I went there without knowing what would happen, and I honestly think it ended up making all the difference.
I'll see you at work on monday