staying strong

[lynx853]

its hard. I'm going to try and keep my mind busy and get through this. it's when I hear her voice my heart starts beating faster and I get flooded with emotions. I feel like I can't breath and I start shaking. I pray everyday for a change. for a chance of hope. and every time I hang up, I hang up frusterated and for lack of a better word sad. She's changed. she's not the same girl I fell in love with. she's not the same girl that cares about her family and her dads house. But my love for her is unconditional. I love her no matter what, and will always be there when she decides she wants me again. If she decides she wants me. I know deep down inside her, the real destinee still exists. I would do anything for her because I know she's the one in a million girl that would take a lifetime to find again. she's incredible and has made me so much of a better person, and has been there for me between thick and thin. was it the worst decisison of my life to let her go? yes. I will spend the rest of my life righting my wrongs for her.

everything reminds me of her. its a love hate thing. I know I need to live my life, but I want to make her my life. I'm lost.