not a good day...ever
i feel stressed and depressed of course. nothing unusual. I not crying too much anymore. I feel worthless. i'm worthless at work, home and school. so yea, that would make me worthless altogether. which is why people always have to say stuff and make fun of me. which makes me feel worse about myself. say anything positive, and i can find a way to make it negative. thats just the way i am. ever characteristic i hate about someone, seems to be part of me. i guess that makes me hate myself. i wonder why people cant seem to understand me. they dont get it. i wish i could be a happier person altogether, not just sometimes. i'm lonely i have the house to myself when i wish someone was here. i want to be held and comforted, but i cant, and i'm lonely. all i want to do is cry, it makes me feel better. i wish i was like everyone else and not an outcast. i wish people wouldnt say stuff and make fun of me to make my depression worse. i wish i wasnt like this, cause i dont like feeling this way and pushing away people that i love. i wish i could make people understand the way i am, and i wish i could talk about it, but i cant. i dont want to feel ashamed of myself anymore, i just want to feel normal and not left out.