Just a waste of time again
I don't know whats going on right now. I took my pills over 2 and a half hours ago. EVery is so fcuked up right at this moment. RX sleeping pills are suppose to work, they put you to sleep. Thats why I go to the dcotors to get these majical pills. THey shoulda have put me to bed. I should be passed out right now. The side effects when you go on them without passing out are herendce. Like no other effect. I can't remember taking them, but i did, because of what i'm "seeing" and "feeling" and i drank water and it tasted like poision. SO yea I know I took it. I can't look stright. My body, I don't know what's wrong with it. It's so wrong. I'm hillusinating rreally bad. People. they're everywhere. They walked by the doorway, twice, but I didn't know who is was. No one was there. But I saw the skin. I'm scared. They we on my roof and running past my car. They made my car wavy. How'd they do that. Then there was a cat on my roof, just looking at me. What's going on. I'm going crazy at this point. I can't turn my head too quick. Things might be there. I wanna go to sleep. WHy can't I sleep! EV!ER EVen on these FUckingG PillLS! Look what they're doing to me! Theyre not helping tonight. They havent been. I'm hillusinating things every where.Thinsg are there, then theyre not. Things mmove before my eyes. I think I'm dreaming. I think this is all a dream. I can't understand what people say. I called Donny and I don't understand. The phone went out tho. I'm I awakke yet, is this dream almost done. I feel so weird. I'm in a dream. NO i'm the one dreaming, I'm sleeping like I'm suppose to be, but I'm still conscience. I don't know what's happening. I'm not tired. I'm suppose to be tired! BUt no i'm a vampiress! My body fell asleep I think. I'm weak. I can't walk. EVen when I get up from the wall, I can't go striaght. What is happening. I'm scared. I tryed calling people to talk to me. Cuz I need to talk to someone. I tryed calling Nate like 12 times. He must have his phone turned off. It goes right to his voicemail. ANd I did get ahold of donny, but it went out. That's OK I can't think enough. This is so strange. I didn't think this was going to happen. Lets go see if I can walk again. And not into wall this time. I can't settle down. I need to sleep. Maybe I'll take anyother pill. But if I take another one I would prolly die on it from ODing. That might not be too good. So I can't take anything else or I'll OD. Well maybe it'll just make me go to bed for a long time, like a couple days rest. Thats too risky tho. I think things in front of me would stop moving, or stopppi making so many of themselves, or making them look like other things. Maybe I'll just go..and fall or something. OK something else just shot pass my doorway. I wish i could talk to someone. I'm scared. Things are everywhere. This is so bad I never had a feeling like this bbefore. It's sort of a high, but 100 times worse and scary and weird and bad. This is a high I hate. I don't know whats going on. I need someone to tuck me into bed and make me go to sleep. Wow very interesting. This is crazy. How'd it get so late..It was just 1130. It can't be right, it's not that late already.