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I'll tell you what's been happening lately backwards in time. I'll go from now till last week. There's been some events that should be written down. I started to try and redo my journal..I wanted to make it more...me, i guess, if that's how you would put it. I added things from bands that share the same thoughts, feelings and belielfs as me. As I find more, or better ones to fit, I'll prolly redo it. Little by little I'll fingure out how to make it exactly how I want it. Things from some of my favorite things will be and are throughout pages. Kinda, a bit. I need to learn how to do more things before I can redo it good. At least it's not all black and it's a tad more creative.
yesterday I went to the mall with my aunt and cousin Julie. I call her Jew tho. I got a skirt that I wanted to finally go with my fishnets I brought. So when it gets a little bit warmer I'll wear them. I get cold easily, unless I would wear it now. I went to the food court and saw a whole bunch of people I knew. First I saw Leah buying a soda and i was like omg Leah. Then I got my chinese and sat down at a table by Leah..and she came with a bunch or people. There was Leah, Val, Cassie, Pat C. Shaggy and Joe. I was with my cousin and we sat down then Joe came over and sat down with us (ahah later my cousin said Joe was cute) anyway, he was just telling me how he pasted Pat M. on the way here. Pat M. got stopped by a cop...ha. Then all of a sudden Pat M. James and Nicki walk into the food court. I was like whoa...what is everyone here. I was trying to explain to julie who everyone was, and since she's just like me..blonde, polish and a korona(worst of all for stupidness)..she kinda was just like ohh ok. With that Julie look when she really doesn't get it. I wouldn't think she would remember any names, or where I showed her them before. When I intrudused james..he was like yea i'm james, from no second chances. And I love James, he's great, but that pisses me off. They wanted a second guitar player in the band. They added James. This was about two months ago. And at first when he used to do things like that, and always sing the songs and kinda "glote" about being in the band, I was like alright he's excited. But now it's like..wow that should stop. It gets me annoyed now. OK while were on the subject, kinda, I would like to explain another thing that really gets me mad. Me christina allie tom mylinda, we've been going to the shows since a while now. Were there their friends. Allie's pat's girlfriend for a while,(and they seem so good together) and Christina's Nick's girlfriend, another good couple. I really do love seeing them together. They really care about each other. OK i'm getting off subject again. Well ever since James has been in the band, people, well my friends, love them dearly, but it's like James is their ticket in. Mike, Jake, Martin, Zo...they've been like obsessing about NSC ever since James has joined the band. They never talked to pat and nick and nick really before james enters and now they're trying to become like one of them. All the talk about is NSC. And they all of a sudden start going to all of the shows, and better yet taking our spots in front. Christina was pissed bc its like well I should be in front(the girrlfriends are always in front) and the second things is we've been going to these shows before we were good friends with them. Mike, Jake, Zo and Martin never went to the shows before James was in the band. Now they all ubsesse about it. The thing is I wouldn't be so mad about it. But they're like fans to NSC, me and christina are friends to them. It's really annoying. They always call them NSC, not pat, nick, nick, and James. AT the show, at first I think it was all just joking, but it seems more real now...they like grab a pick or the paper Pat and Nick use to have the order of the songs they play written down on. They grab it and go "Omg I have their paper." And someone else will be like "Omg the paper NSC used." I'm like shut up, now it's not funny. yOu did that for the past 3 shows. Before all of them didn't care about the shows, let alone go to them. Now they go. Jake even has the sites NSC has in his info. It pisses me off. They're suppose to be their friends not fans. It really gets annoying after a while. Then Jake and Mike and zo and Martin are always trying to hang around with them, but besides James, they never talked to nick pat and nick alot. It's like com'on. Stop obsessing about your friends. They are good, and it's ok to be supportive and excited for them. But not obsessed. Pat was telling me they want to start making shirts. And I was talking to Christina and was like "If they make shirts I'll deff. get one to support them, but I think we should make our own ones. Bc people like jake and mike and martin are gonna buy them and wear them all the time and act dumb and annoying about wearing them. So I wanna make my own." and she was like "yea that's a good idea." I think they should start acting more like friends at the shows, not fans. I love them all, and I don't mean to sound mean to them, but they should just tone it down.
Saturday my mom and me took Leah out for her birthday. Yea I know it's late but we did it. It was good. We went to the Chinese Buffet, and I haven't been there in a long time, and it was good. I gave Leah her presents, but one hasn't came in from Avon yet. When it comes in I'll give it to her, but I'm not saying what it is yet. It's not big, but she'll love it. I got one for myself too. It's something you ca use and like.
Friday we went to them show. It was wicked good, alot of people went. I haven't seen a turn out like that in a while. They had shorter sets tho. I guess they started later. But they got over a lot earlier. The people were really going crazy the whole night. I love sitting on the bar and watching the people do crazy things in the mosh pits. I love when Justin Hunt goes in. He'll like skip around them go do something crazy. Or run and jump on all the people in the front. When Justin plays me and Christin are always like Justin Hunt we love you. We never just call him Justin. Always Justin Hunt. Someone, maybe him started doing cart wheels in the mosh pit a few times. Then the stoner guy. There was this kid, he was deff. trippin' off something. I was like yea, he had shrooms. He was dancing in the mosh pits. You know the slow, hippi, dances. And GLIDDING across the floors. He almost beat the guys in tight pants the first show we went it..one was dancing like a robot, and the other guy jumps almost tounching the ceiling and kicks. They were the best. I actaully had to go up to them and say how enteraining they made that one night. I think I got a picture of them and they're crazy faces. That one kid was there, well he's always there, the kid from Skip's band, at the halloween show we was a pirate with boobs, anyway he grew out his mohahk and now its long and green. If my camera didn't run out of battery I woulda had a picture of all this. It was crazy looking. He was in the circle pit and all I saw was that green mohahk bouncing around. Then I was watching the circle pit, all of a sudden saw Chris run and , not even jump, fly thru the air, and landing on a speaker. I wish I had a video camera, it woulda won american's funniest home videos. Then Christina was just standing by the wrong girl. A pit broke out next to us and this little girl, maybe 13, kept hitting us. The girl was flaring her arms about and punched Christina hard. So Christina went after her. All of a sudden I saw Christina attcking this girl. Just standing there punching the hell out of her. I as laughing so hard. It was great. This girl didn't see it coming and didn't know what was going on. It was great. Hannah got pushed over a speaker on the ground and completely fell on the ground knocking Pat's mic over. I felt so bad for her. I was like aww, poor Hannah. It was a good night.
Last week I made it thru the whole week. We had a half day on Friday tho, so almost a half day. I still don't know how I made it everyday. I'm still trying to fingure it out. I just don't know how I didn't die. I was running on "fumes", so to speek. Some nights I didn't sleep, and the other nights I hardly slept. I got in a week, what a normal person gets in a night. I thought everyday I was going to drop dead. My body was so physically exhusted, it was falling apart. I felt so sick that it felt like I was dying. I couldn't eat, sleep, or really do anything I wanted to. I went to school just being a zombie and trying not to snap at everyone. Besidis I probably looked like a train wreck. I was so tired, I was hurting so bad, but I still couldn't fall to sleep. I still couldn't stay asleep. I just really wish I could sleep. I found a cure to my headaches..never sleep. Cuz then your too exhusted to feel it, and since there is so much pain throughout your body, it doesn't really have enough to give out to the head. It's the story of my life...a catch 22. Which I don't have a clue where people came up with saying a catch 22. It really doesn't make sence. But that's the way it is.
We have the whole week off from school. Thank God. Like I could ever go another week like I did. I think I would drop dead. But with feeling that way a lot, wouldn't be so bad sometimes. I'm starting tanning..which on the bottle of my pills it says not to do. But with a tanning salon your not reall in there for a "prolonged" amount of time. What is it at most for me, 15 minutes, if that. So of well. Tuesday, which now is today, I go to the doctors. Nothing good can come of that then more pills and a higher dose of them. Oh joy.
yesterday I went to the mall with my aunt and cousin Julie. I call her Jew tho. I got a skirt that I wanted to finally go with my fishnets I brought. So when it gets a little bit warmer I'll wear them. I get cold easily, unless I would wear it now. I went to the food court and saw a whole bunch of people I knew. First I saw Leah buying a soda and i was like omg Leah. Then I got my chinese and sat down at a table by Leah..and she came with a bunch or people. There was Leah, Val, Cassie, Pat C. Shaggy and Joe. I was with my cousin and we sat down then Joe came over and sat down with us (ahah later my cousin said Joe was cute) anyway, he was just telling me how he pasted Pat M. on the way here. Pat M. got stopped by a cop...ha. Then all of a sudden Pat M. James and Nicki walk into the food court. I was like whoa...what is everyone here. I was trying to explain to julie who everyone was, and since she's just like me..blonde, polish and a korona(worst of all for stupidness)..she kinda was just like ohh ok. With that Julie look when she really doesn't get it. I wouldn't think she would remember any names, or where I showed her them before. When I intrudused james..he was like yea i'm james, from no second chances. And I love James, he's great, but that pisses me off. They wanted a second guitar player in the band. They added James. This was about two months ago. And at first when he used to do things like that, and always sing the songs and kinda "glote" about being in the band, I was like alright he's excited. But now it's like..wow that should stop. It gets me annoyed now. OK while were on the subject, kinda, I would like to explain another thing that really gets me mad. Me christina allie tom mylinda, we've been going to the shows since a while now. Were there their friends. Allie's pat's girlfriend for a while,(and they seem so good together) and Christina's Nick's girlfriend, another good couple. I really do love seeing them together. They really care about each other. OK i'm getting off subject again. Well ever since James has been in the band, people, well my friends, love them dearly, but it's like James is their ticket in. Mike, Jake, Martin, Zo...they've been like obsessing about NSC ever since James has joined the band. They never talked to pat and nick and nick really before james enters and now they're trying to become like one of them. All the talk about is NSC. And they all of a sudden start going to all of the shows, and better yet taking our spots in front. Christina was pissed bc its like well I should be in front(the girrlfriends are always in front) and the second things is we've been going to these shows before we were good friends with them. Mike, Jake, Zo and Martin never went to the shows before James was in the band. Now they all ubsesse about it. The thing is I wouldn't be so mad about it. But they're like fans to NSC, me and christina are friends to them. It's really annoying. They always call them NSC, not pat, nick, nick, and James. AT the show, at first I think it was all just joking, but it seems more real now...they like grab a pick or the paper Pat and Nick use to have the order of the songs they play written down on. They grab it and go "Omg I have their paper." And someone else will be like "Omg the paper NSC used." I'm like shut up, now it's not funny. yOu did that for the past 3 shows. Before all of them didn't care about the shows, let alone go to them. Now they go. Jake even has the sites NSC has in his info. It pisses me off. They're suppose to be their friends not fans. It really gets annoying after a while. Then Jake and Mike and zo and Martin are always trying to hang around with them, but besides James, they never talked to nick pat and nick alot. It's like com'on. Stop obsessing about your friends. They are good, and it's ok to be supportive and excited for them. But not obsessed. Pat was telling me they want to start making shirts. And I was talking to Christina and was like "If they make shirts I'll deff. get one to support them, but I think we should make our own ones. Bc people like jake and mike and martin are gonna buy them and wear them all the time and act dumb and annoying about wearing them. So I wanna make my own." and she was like "yea that's a good idea." I think they should start acting more like friends at the shows, not fans. I love them all, and I don't mean to sound mean to them, but they should just tone it down.
Saturday my mom and me took Leah out for her birthday. Yea I know it's late but we did it. It was good. We went to the Chinese Buffet, and I haven't been there in a long time, and it was good. I gave Leah her presents, but one hasn't came in from Avon yet. When it comes in I'll give it to her, but I'm not saying what it is yet. It's not big, but she'll love it. I got one for myself too. It's something you ca use and like.
Friday we went to them show. It was wicked good, alot of people went. I haven't seen a turn out like that in a while. They had shorter sets tho. I guess they started later. But they got over a lot earlier. The people were really going crazy the whole night. I love sitting on the bar and watching the people do crazy things in the mosh pits. I love when Justin Hunt goes in. He'll like skip around them go do something crazy. Or run and jump on all the people in the front. When Justin plays me and Christin are always like Justin Hunt we love you. We never just call him Justin. Always Justin Hunt. Someone, maybe him started doing cart wheels in the mosh pit a few times. Then the stoner guy. There was this kid, he was deff. trippin' off something. I was like yea, he had shrooms. He was dancing in the mosh pits. You know the slow, hippi, dances. And GLIDDING across the floors. He almost beat the guys in tight pants the first show we went it..one was dancing like a robot, and the other guy jumps almost tounching the ceiling and kicks. They were the best. I actaully had to go up to them and say how enteraining they made that one night. I think I got a picture of them and they're crazy faces. That one kid was there, well he's always there, the kid from Skip's band, at the halloween show we was a pirate with boobs, anyway he grew out his mohahk and now its long and green. If my camera didn't run out of battery I woulda had a picture of all this. It was crazy looking. He was in the circle pit and all I saw was that green mohahk bouncing around. Then I was watching the circle pit, all of a sudden saw Chris run and , not even jump, fly thru the air, and landing on a speaker. I wish I had a video camera, it woulda won american's funniest home videos. Then Christina was just standing by the wrong girl. A pit broke out next to us and this little girl, maybe 13, kept hitting us. The girl was flaring her arms about and punched Christina hard. So Christina went after her. All of a sudden I saw Christina attcking this girl. Just standing there punching the hell out of her. I as laughing so hard. It was great. This girl didn't see it coming and didn't know what was going on. It was great. Hannah got pushed over a speaker on the ground and completely fell on the ground knocking Pat's mic over. I felt so bad for her. I was like aww, poor Hannah. It was a good night.
Last week I made it thru the whole week. We had a half day on Friday tho, so almost a half day. I still don't know how I made it everyday. I'm still trying to fingure it out. I just don't know how I didn't die. I was running on "fumes", so to speek. Some nights I didn't sleep, and the other nights I hardly slept. I got in a week, what a normal person gets in a night. I thought everyday I was going to drop dead. My body was so physically exhusted, it was falling apart. I felt so sick that it felt like I was dying. I couldn't eat, sleep, or really do anything I wanted to. I went to school just being a zombie and trying not to snap at everyone. Besidis I probably looked like a train wreck. I was so tired, I was hurting so bad, but I still couldn't fall to sleep. I still couldn't stay asleep. I just really wish I could sleep. I found a cure to my headaches..never sleep. Cuz then your too exhusted to feel it, and since there is so much pain throughout your body, it doesn't really have enough to give out to the head. It's the story of my life...a catch 22. Which I don't have a clue where people came up with saying a catch 22. It really doesn't make sence. But that's the way it is.
We have the whole week off from school. Thank God. Like I could ever go another week like I did. I think I would drop dead. But with feeling that way a lot, wouldn't be so bad sometimes. I'm starting tanning..which on the bottle of my pills it says not to do. But with a tanning salon your not reall in there for a "prolonged" amount of time. What is it at most for me, 15 minutes, if that. So of well. Tuesday, which now is today, I go to the doctors. Nothing good can come of that then more pills and a higher dose of them. Oh joy.