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I'm going to begin a new segment in this journal. It's called, "what I learned today." You wanna know? I learned that no matter how nice you are, or how good a person you are, something in your life that you always trusted would be there dissapears. Even if you don't know what it is, all of a sudden, there is this void. It feels as though the world around you is slipping away, like your losing contact with everyone. You wonder if there really is a heaven and a hell, then they both must be better places to be than this shithole of reality. You can be afraid of death all your life, but when you think about it, the only thing your afraid of is how much others will miss you and be said. But when you realize that no one really cares, death isn't all that bad a concept. So, I am going to take my glass of vodka and go try to pass out for the rest of the night. I hate feeling this way, but I can't help it. I can't tell her how I feel, she'll be offended. But if i try to say it nicely, I think I'll puke.
there are just some things in the world that some people should never know.
there are just some things in the world that some people should never know.