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Well, first day of lent..
Can't say not being on aim or msn is easy, because its not..but its 11 pm now and OF COURSE I have to be in one of my "deep thoughts" moods..but I realized something..
Lent is nice, because I dont have to be anything for anyone, you know? Like..well Jason wont read this so it really doesnt matter if I write it in here (but if you do read this Jason just want you to know that its no offence or anything, k?) But yeah, he told me a few months ago that he missed me the way I used to be, which was all hyper and happy.. its really nice during lent, because I dont have to laugh and say sorry, and act like he wants me to.. same thing goes for everyone.. I don't have to be a hyperactive idiot, I can be alone and be myself..
I've forgotton how good it feels to be alone, just by myself thinking. I've missed that without realizing it..I really have. I like being alone, I've forgotton how good it feels to just put up that blank stare and fall into myself for a few hours, just stare at the wall and think while I'm alone. It feels good, I don't have to talk to anyone and get there opinion, it's just me, by myself. I can let the way I really feel out, you know? without worrying about what anyone thinks.
Ive missed that..a lot.
K, well thats Lynns deep thoughts for the day. Night everyone.
Can't say not being on aim or msn is easy, because its not..but its 11 pm now and OF COURSE I have to be in one of my "deep thoughts" moods..but I realized something..
Lent is nice, because I dont have to be anything for anyone, you know? Like..well Jason wont read this so it really doesnt matter if I write it in here (but if you do read this Jason just want you to know that its no offence or anything, k?) But yeah, he told me a few months ago that he missed me the way I used to be, which was all hyper and happy.. its really nice during lent, because I dont have to laugh and say sorry, and act like he wants me to.. same thing goes for everyone.. I don't have to be a hyperactive idiot, I can be alone and be myself..
I've forgotton how good it feels to be alone, just by myself thinking. I've missed that without realizing it..I really have. I like being alone, I've forgotton how good it feels to just put up that blank stare and fall into myself for a few hours, just stare at the wall and think while I'm alone. It feels good, I don't have to talk to anyone and get there opinion, it's just me, by myself. I can let the way I really feel out, you know? without worrying about what anyone thinks.
Ive missed that..a lot.
K, well thats Lynns deep thoughts for the day. Night everyone.