Just when I thought I couldn't feel any lower....
Ever have the feeling like you've not only lost one best friend, but TWO?? Just because you found something out about someone, and instead of trying to rationalize it like a mature adult, you find yourself driving yourself so nuts about it, that when it comes time to talk to the someone about it, you end up cranking out sarcasm and anger that you didn't think you were capable of? Instead of being the calm, rational adult you're supposed to be, you end up sounding completely nuts? All I know is, I spent the better part of yesterday after all was said and done, sobbing like I had literally lost my best friend....I couldn't even sleep last night. And as for my other friend, he has been doing nothing except spreading dirt about me ever since he stopped working for me, that it's all I have not to let him have it too. The difference between the two? I felt this burning need to confront the one friend and get it all out but had planned to be cool about it....didn't work. And the other friend I've been avoiding like the plague 'cause I am angry enough to really let him have it and I know it. I work in the same mall as he does and it's bad enough I have to deal with him if he comes into my store as a customer.
I spoke to the friend I blew up at today; I refused to change my opinion on the situation but did admit to over-reacting. Things just feel like they've gone downhill for the last few months and I can't seem to control anything....it's horribly unsettling.
I spoke to the friend I blew up at today; I refused to change my opinion on the situation but did admit to over-reacting. Things just feel like they've gone downhill for the last few months and I can't seem to control anything....it's horribly unsettling.