random thoughts
i don't have any idea where the last two weeks have gone. they seriously just all blur together. i feel like it has only been like two days since we have been back at school. i have two tests next week, mondy nd tuesday. just so happens to be the two days im supposed to be at jury duty selection days or something like that. i guess i call the night before and see if im supposed to report. hopefully i don't have to either day. but i bet i will have to go at least one. monday have a french exam and work 5-10, and jury duty. supposedly i will be out of that in time to go to work. on tuesday i have a bio exam and a soccer game. the soccer game isn't until later so that won't be a problem. shit. i bet for reporting i have to go at like 9am. that is going to suck. real bad. i don't ever get up before noon anymore. i try. but fail.
our rec center has been closed because of a water main break. that fucking sucks. i guess it was supposed to be open by now, but it wasn't today, so we have no idea when it will open. im supposed to go tomorrow. i kinda hope it does open cuz i need to go. im loosing all my flexibility...well, i don't know that i ever got it back, but if i did, its gone now.
ok back to the random thoughts. life is wierd. strange how it works. i bet nobody will be able to follow my thoughts. but anyways. its strange how i thought a couple weeks ago that people i "rediscovered" on facebook would be different now. but no. its no different. i added people to my AIM list to read away messages because thats what i do. i like away messages. but anyhow. i read them, and people haven't changed. nobody really leaves maumee high school, or so it seems. i know there are people that do. i guess it is true that all the same cliques (i can't spell that word) will be the same at our 5 and/or 10 year reunions. i don't even know if there is a 5 year one. and after that i guess it changes. someone told me this once.
so im really jealous of my cousin right now. for his spring break he is doing a week long internship in Bermuda and everything is paid for except his flight down there. he is in grad school. and for anyone who knows some of my family it is Matt. i looked at the hotel/cabana thing he is staying in. its fucking awesome! everyone needs to check it out. www.9beaches.com do it. now.
so speaking of spring break. i was invited to go with mandy on a cruise. i can't remember if i mentioned this yet. i would love to go. it would be pretty awesome. but i don't want to ditch my friends. im not even sure what we are doing. anyone? anyone? but anyways. half of me really really wants to go skiing. and the other half of me really wants to go somewhere warm. like florida. to visit my grandma. cuz i could do that if i wanted. or go to hilton head and stay in my uncles condo. but i need people to go with. skiing would be so awesome though. really awesome.
i might have mentioned all this before too, but i have lots of offers for housing next year. soccer house, live with mandy and alex, apartment with alley, somewhere in findlay. i can't decide. i have no idea what im even going to do. if findlay doesn't accept me i guess i really don't have to worry about it anyways.
there are so many reasons to stay here. and only one to leave. that one outweighs all the others. im afraid of failing. i really am. i think that if i do go down there i might be in the program, but i might not be able to stay in it. if i drop any grade for a single class below a B im screwed. what if it turns out i really don't want to do pharmacy?? i fucked up last year and that is going to haunt me probably the rest of my life. i guess i just need to wait and see what findlay will do for me. hopefully that will be in the next 12 days. thats all im giving them. then i call. or email. or take another trip down there.
i miss saeed. i think if anyone would understand me it would be him. too bad he is never online and doesn't answer his phone. im glad he got a US number though. cuz all those international charges were starting to add up.
well this wasn't supposed to be this long. later.
our rec center has been closed because of a water main break. that fucking sucks. i guess it was supposed to be open by now, but it wasn't today, so we have no idea when it will open. im supposed to go tomorrow. i kinda hope it does open cuz i need to go. im loosing all my flexibility...well, i don't know that i ever got it back, but if i did, its gone now.
ok back to the random thoughts. life is wierd. strange how it works. i bet nobody will be able to follow my thoughts. but anyways. its strange how i thought a couple weeks ago that people i "rediscovered" on facebook would be different now. but no. its no different. i added people to my AIM list to read away messages because thats what i do. i like away messages. but anyhow. i read them, and people haven't changed. nobody really leaves maumee high school, or so it seems. i know there are people that do. i guess it is true that all the same cliques (i can't spell that word) will be the same at our 5 and/or 10 year reunions. i don't even know if there is a 5 year one. and after that i guess it changes. someone told me this once.
so im really jealous of my cousin right now. for his spring break he is doing a week long internship in Bermuda and everything is paid for except his flight down there. he is in grad school. and for anyone who knows some of my family it is Matt. i looked at the hotel/cabana thing he is staying in. its fucking awesome! everyone needs to check it out. www.9beaches.com do it. now.
so speaking of spring break. i was invited to go with mandy on a cruise. i can't remember if i mentioned this yet. i would love to go. it would be pretty awesome. but i don't want to ditch my friends. im not even sure what we are doing. anyone? anyone? but anyways. half of me really really wants to go skiing. and the other half of me really wants to go somewhere warm. like florida. to visit my grandma. cuz i could do that if i wanted. or go to hilton head and stay in my uncles condo. but i need people to go with. skiing would be so awesome though. really awesome.
i might have mentioned all this before too, but i have lots of offers for housing next year. soccer house, live with mandy and alex, apartment with alley, somewhere in findlay. i can't decide. i have no idea what im even going to do. if findlay doesn't accept me i guess i really don't have to worry about it anyways.
there are so many reasons to stay here. and only one to leave. that one outweighs all the others. im afraid of failing. i really am. i think that if i do go down there i might be in the program, but i might not be able to stay in it. if i drop any grade for a single class below a B im screwed. what if it turns out i really don't want to do pharmacy?? i fucked up last year and that is going to haunt me probably the rest of my life. i guess i just need to wait and see what findlay will do for me. hopefully that will be in the next 12 days. thats all im giving them. then i call. or email. or take another trip down there.
i miss saeed. i think if anyone would understand me it would be him. too bad he is never online and doesn't answer his phone. im glad he got a US number though. cuz all those international charges were starting to add up.
well this wasn't supposed to be this long. later.