Closing of a chapter
I graduated today--well technically yesterday because it is past midnight. My brothers Josh and Joe are here, along with my sister-in-law Carolyn.
So, why, might you ask, am I sitting at the computer at this particular moment in time in the hotel?? Here's the answer:
My brothers are enjoying themselves and the fact that they are taking a break from their ever so exhausting work schedule. They are soaking up San Antonio in a way that I was never able to due to my lack of existence on this earth. They are all out hitting the bars right now finally--they kept on bugging me and tried to get me to throw back a few while we were at the comedy club tonight. They keep on saying how I've suddenly transformed into someone that is not their little sister--and that bugs me. Just because I don't feel like drinking with them, or because I think that some of their comments just aren't as funny as I once thought--I'm suddenly an entirely new person. They just lack the understanding that I am in the ARMY, something that I've sweated, bled, and breathed for the last 6 months--and right now, I'm TIRED. I don't feel like going out all night, I don't feel like being dragged all over, I don't feel like being with them. As much as I longed to see my brothers, I find myself passing up the opportunity to hang out with them and thinking about how much I already miss some of my battle buddies. I miss talking with Tyler and Nick--even while walking down the riverwalk today, I kept on thinking 'oh this is where me, Tyler, and Nick walked around after the movies that one night'. Stuff like that. It's really starting to sink in that I can't talk to them and that we are all apart now. I'm not going to see them tomorrow morning or go out to lunch with them. I feel a void.
I hate the fact that instead of being HOME in MY bed right now, I'm still in San Antonio because they wanted to see the city. I hate this. I just want to go home and see my parents. Instead of my pushy family I'm with right now, my mom would be content with just holding me and watching a movie with me. Because, unlike them, my mommy is just happy to be with me. I miss that. I miss her hugs and I hate the fact that I'm not home getting those hugs that I so righteously deserve because they want to play tourist.
Aside from that, they tease me because of Ed. They like him but they just don't realize that I really like him, despite what they and everyone else thinks. Carolyn was telling me how the boys are just scared because this is a serious relationship in their eyes because it's not a typical high school relationship. My brother Josh thinks that I'm going to get married.----No thank you. Aside from that, I've already been threatened with an ass-beating---right Nick? My dad told my brothers to quit it already. Enough is enough. That is why I love daddy--he at least acknowledges the fact that I'm not 5 anymore.
Ed comes to Chicago in 9 days.
My flight arrives at O'Hare at 8:47 pm...too bad I couldn't fast forward time.
Goodnight all.
So, why, might you ask, am I sitting at the computer at this particular moment in time in the hotel?? Here's the answer:
My brothers are enjoying themselves and the fact that they are taking a break from their ever so exhausting work schedule. They are soaking up San Antonio in a way that I was never able to due to my lack of existence on this earth. They are all out hitting the bars right now finally--they kept on bugging me and tried to get me to throw back a few while we were at the comedy club tonight. They keep on saying how I've suddenly transformed into someone that is not their little sister--and that bugs me. Just because I don't feel like drinking with them, or because I think that some of their comments just aren't as funny as I once thought--I'm suddenly an entirely new person. They just lack the understanding that I am in the ARMY, something that I've sweated, bled, and breathed for the last 6 months--and right now, I'm TIRED. I don't feel like going out all night, I don't feel like being dragged all over, I don't feel like being with them. As much as I longed to see my brothers, I find myself passing up the opportunity to hang out with them and thinking about how much I already miss some of my battle buddies. I miss talking with Tyler and Nick--even while walking down the riverwalk today, I kept on thinking 'oh this is where me, Tyler, and Nick walked around after the movies that one night'. Stuff like that. It's really starting to sink in that I can't talk to them and that we are all apart now. I'm not going to see them tomorrow morning or go out to lunch with them. I feel a void.
I hate the fact that instead of being HOME in MY bed right now, I'm still in San Antonio because they wanted to see the city. I hate this. I just want to go home and see my parents. Instead of my pushy family I'm with right now, my mom would be content with just holding me and watching a movie with me. Because, unlike them, my mommy is just happy to be with me. I miss that. I miss her hugs and I hate the fact that I'm not home getting those hugs that I so righteously deserve because they want to play tourist.
Aside from that, they tease me because of Ed. They like him but they just don't realize that I really like him, despite what they and everyone else thinks. Carolyn was telling me how the boys are just scared because this is a serious relationship in their eyes because it's not a typical high school relationship. My brother Josh thinks that I'm going to get married.----No thank you. Aside from that, I've already been threatened with an ass-beating---right Nick? My dad told my brothers to quit it already. Enough is enough. That is why I love daddy--he at least acknowledges the fact that I'm not 5 anymore.
Ed comes to Chicago in 9 days.
My flight arrives at O'Hare at 8:47 pm...too bad I couldn't fast forward time.
Goodnight all.