The thing is-
When it comes to life, you just never know.
You can want something to go one way all you want, but it's going to happen the way it's supposed to no matter what. Everything happens for a reason. You can try to change something all you want, but it doesn't mean it's going to do any good. My whole life there has been something I've tried to change, someone I've tried to change. It just came to me that everytime? It's been a waste of time. You can put effort into how you appear to someone, but for someone to take you in? You can't change that.
You can only help people who want to be helped.
You can only love people who want to be loved.
You can only trust someone who trusts you.
And that's the truth.
If there's one thing I could tell you all that I've learned since [especially] last year, it's that there are some people on this earth who will just never know true happiness. Mainly it's because they refuse to let themselves feel it. Feeling alone and sometimes even depressed is all they know, and frankley, with some people? All they want to know. And with some people, forgiveness is not an option. There's a wall that they're never going to break down, and as hard as you try you can't do that until THEY'RE ready. Some people are never ready. (No matter how drunk or high they might get, to be honest.)
On the same subject, there are also some people that always choose the wrong path.
Some people weren't taught how to make correct decisions, or they're just used to picking what they want instead of thinking down the line what it could turn to be. Someone who makes these kinds of decisions are eventually going to learn the hard way that they need some kind of help, some kind of guidence. And no matter what the people around them at that time aren't going to know what to do- because that same person pushed whoever it was that could help them, time and time again.
I think I want to be a Psychology major.
The more and more I take these classes the more and more I want to learn how someone could just shut a friend out. A friend who's been there for say- 8-9 years? A friend who you trusted and talked to constantly and shared so much with? AND LIE ABOUT IT? And what over? Something so trival that with any other normal person, it would have been talked about and ignored. I'm pretty sure that's a red flag of a disorder. How could you have this.. this.. platonic love for someone and have a good time with them, and because YOU made a foolish mistake, get upset? So upset that you as a person completely shut down what you were and become something so ugly- AND BE OKAY WITH IT!? There are 'feel good' barriers and 'scared' barriers. Someone needs to switch closed doors, here.
I've met a lot of people so far in my life, and I have no regrets.
The only people in this world who have regrets, are people in denial. Think about it. If you go out late at night by yourself and get mugged, you might regret going out that night but somewhere down the line you'll be glad you learned that lesson and not do it again. When you were regretting what you did, that was denial. I know there are certain people out there who say they wish they never met me, and some people out there who want to block me out from their life completely. Maybe even some people out there who claim they hate me. And there are some people that at one point I felt that way about as well, I'm not going to lie. But when it comes down to it- no matter who you meet effects your life in a certain way that can never happen again. I would never trade any of my interactions for anything.
I know that everything happens for a reason; everyone comes along for a reason.
The person who wants to block me out of their life- fine. Be my guest. But don't say I told you so when you're stuck in the middle of your life and your biggest fan is no longer there. Everyone needs to learn this lesson in life themselves, and call me a fool but even on my death bed, I'd be there for you. Them. I ment- them. There's a reason you love someone, there's a reason you hate someone.. there's a reason for every single action, and reaction. And because of the previous explainations, examples, and studies- I'm going to keep telling myself even after a year of neglecting to interact with each other, this is why I can't let you it go.
You can want something to go one way all you want, but it's going to happen the way it's supposed to no matter what. Everything happens for a reason. You can try to change something all you want, but it doesn't mean it's going to do any good. My whole life there has been something I've tried to change, someone I've tried to change. It just came to me that everytime? It's been a waste of time. You can put effort into how you appear to someone, but for someone to take you in? You can't change that.
You can only help people who want to be helped.
You can only love people who want to be loved.
You can only trust someone who trusts you.
And that's the truth.
If there's one thing I could tell you all that I've learned since [especially] last year, it's that there are some people on this earth who will just never know true happiness. Mainly it's because they refuse to let themselves feel it. Feeling alone and sometimes even depressed is all they know, and frankley, with some people? All they want to know. And with some people, forgiveness is not an option. There's a wall that they're never going to break down, and as hard as you try you can't do that until THEY'RE ready. Some people are never ready. (No matter how drunk or high they might get, to be honest.)
On the same subject, there are also some people that always choose the wrong path.
Some people weren't taught how to make correct decisions, or they're just used to picking what they want instead of thinking down the line what it could turn to be. Someone who makes these kinds of decisions are eventually going to learn the hard way that they need some kind of help, some kind of guidence. And no matter what the people around them at that time aren't going to know what to do- because that same person pushed whoever it was that could help them, time and time again.
I think I want to be a Psychology major.
The more and more I take these classes the more and more I want to learn how someone could just shut a friend out. A friend who's been there for say- 8-9 years? A friend who you trusted and talked to constantly and shared so much with? AND LIE ABOUT IT? And what over? Something so trival that with any other normal person, it would have been talked about and ignored. I'm pretty sure that's a red flag of a disorder. How could you have this.. this.. platonic love for someone and have a good time with them, and because YOU made a foolish mistake, get upset? So upset that you as a person completely shut down what you were and become something so ugly- AND BE OKAY WITH IT!? There are 'feel good' barriers and 'scared' barriers. Someone needs to switch closed doors, here.
I've met a lot of people so far in my life, and I have no regrets.
The only people in this world who have regrets, are people in denial. Think about it. If you go out late at night by yourself and get mugged, you might regret going out that night but somewhere down the line you'll be glad you learned that lesson and not do it again. When you were regretting what you did, that was denial. I know there are certain people out there who say they wish they never met me, and some people out there who want to block me out from their life completely. Maybe even some people out there who claim they hate me. And there are some people that at one point I felt that way about as well, I'm not going to lie. But when it comes down to it- no matter who you meet effects your life in a certain way that can never happen again. I would never trade any of my interactions for anything.
I know that everything happens for a reason; everyone comes along for a reason.
The person who wants to block me out of their life- fine. Be my guest. But don't say I told you so when you're stuck in the middle of your life and your biggest fan is no longer there. Everyone needs to learn this lesson in life themselves, and call me a fool but even on my death bed, I'd be there for you. Them. I ment- them. There's a reason you love someone, there's a reason you hate someone.. there's a reason for every single action, and reaction. And because of the previous explainations, examples, and studies- I'm going to keep telling myself even after a year of neglecting to interact with each other, this is why I can't let you it go.