sorry
I know I haven't updated in a while but life has been really bad lately... This past weekend some stuff happened that is probably going to effect my whole life. I don't know if it will completely change it but I've had a rough couple of days since and it doesn't seem to be going away anytime soon.
All I want to do right now is go home and go to bed and sleep until the end of the semester where I can wake up to all A's. That can't and would never happen but it's my nice little dream at the moment.
I don't want to talk to anyone because my depression seems to be contagious and I really don't want to make everyone else down too... so I'm sorry to all my friends that it may seem that I've been ignoring you all lately. I just don't feel like being the bearer of bad feelings to everyone.
Besides this weekend, which was the worst, the other bad thing that happened that just seems to be piling up on me is scheduling for classes. I have 14 classes left to take and then I can graduate. 6 of these classes I will be signed up for automatically (they are my education classes) so I never have to worry about not getting into those classes. As for my last 8 classes... out of all of them I could only get into 1... 2 maybe but I was really hoping to save that very easy class until spring semester next year. So... I think I'm just screwed now. I only have 9 credits and I need 12 to qualify for financial aid... so now I am desperatly trying to bump into my classes but it seems that all the professors don't use their e-mail. I tried going to see one today during his office hours but he never showed up. Of course. So now I'm REALLY stressed out about that. And then of course I have the rest of this semesters work load which is also stressing me out to no end. I don't have any more tests until finals but I have research papers left and that is going to take a lot of time and a lot of effort. Both of which I don't want to give with the mood I have been in lately. But if I want to graduate on time and with good grades then I have to. This revelation also puts me in a pissy mood. See? I'm no fun to be around lately.
Hopefully by next Monday I will be in a much better mood. Hopefully...
All I want to do right now is go home and go to bed and sleep until the end of the semester where I can wake up to all A's. That can't and would never happen but it's my nice little dream at the moment.
I don't want to talk to anyone because my depression seems to be contagious and I really don't want to make everyone else down too... so I'm sorry to all my friends that it may seem that I've been ignoring you all lately. I just don't feel like being the bearer of bad feelings to everyone.
Besides this weekend, which was the worst, the other bad thing that happened that just seems to be piling up on me is scheduling for classes. I have 14 classes left to take and then I can graduate. 6 of these classes I will be signed up for automatically (they are my education classes) so I never have to worry about not getting into those classes. As for my last 8 classes... out of all of them I could only get into 1... 2 maybe but I was really hoping to save that very easy class until spring semester next year. So... I think I'm just screwed now. I only have 9 credits and I need 12 to qualify for financial aid... so now I am desperatly trying to bump into my classes but it seems that all the professors don't use their e-mail. I tried going to see one today during his office hours but he never showed up. Of course. So now I'm REALLY stressed out about that. And then of course I have the rest of this semesters work load which is also stressing me out to no end. I don't have any more tests until finals but I have research papers left and that is going to take a lot of time and a lot of effort. Both of which I don't want to give with the mood I have been in lately. But if I want to graduate on time and with good grades then I have to. This revelation also puts me in a pissy mood. See? I'm no fun to be around lately.
Hopefully by next Monday I will be in a much better mood. Hopefully...