sigh...
My life seems such a bore... maybe I should stop reading books where people's lives are more interesting then mine. Maybe it's just because I'm home for winter break... I really can't stand this city... maybe that's why. I don't know... I often wonder if I'm going into the right thing (career wise), if I'm actually going for something that I love or if I'm just settling. It sometimes feels like I'm just doing because I have nothing else to go for. I was always hoping that there was more to do in life... that there would be some kind of adventure. It's probably just childish hopes... I hate it when it's crushed like that. I don't think I'm making any sense to anyone out there but oh well... Maybe this is that dreaded quarterlife crisis I've been hearing about lately? Ha... go me. I didn't think that actually existed, I thought it was a joke. I don't feel like I actually know what I want to do with my life. Actually what I wish I could do right now instead of school is to travel. I would like to see the world before I get into a job where I won't be able to leave until I retire (and by that time I'll be what, 60, 70? I don't think traveling will be as much fun when I'm that old...) Too bad that's not an option you can go for after you graduate from high school. It would be nice though... especially if it was free lol. Now that would be great.