Effexor Day 1
now undersand i have never had to take pills for anything except some antibiotics here and there and then i tried birth control pills once...
so here is what up.
i had a midnight snack and took it then, thinking that it was a good idea to take it before bed, that way i could sleep through some of the symptoms
well i woke up at 5am, lying in bed, wide awake.
comfortable, but just not sleepy.
i laid there for awhile and at some point i finally fell asleep, but as soon as the alarm clock went off at 715 i was awake. wide awake, and i didn't want to be...so i got up and made Jozef some lunch to take with him as usual, and kissed him off to work.
i went and laid back down and ended up falling back to sleep until the kids finally woke up, at that point i turned on the tv and waited until they wanted out, which wasn't all that long.
then its been normal day.
as far as effects from these pills....
well i feel a little weird, my teeth are all wanting to be clenched like when you trip on lsd, and i have a bit of that fuzzy ephedrine feeling accompanied by the occasional need for a deep sigh, and my stomach feels like doo doo.
but i know they say you don't feel any effects for 2 weeks, but i do feel "something" different...i feel more calm, like i am not ready to lash out. i do feel a bit more patient...i can't explain it, and it doesn't make sense after not even been on it for 24 hours.
but shit, even if its a placebo effect, its working. i guess the real test is when it hits about 6pm, the usual freak out time for me....
you and another thing is i think there are people who are depressed for different reasons, some stem from childhood trauma, some stem from low self-confidence, and some truly are a medicaly diseased, the off balance of the seritonin and norepinephrine. these balance depression and anxiety, some people don't feel they have any anxiety problems, and in those cases sopmething like Effexor XR wouldn't be good for them, because it will change that anxiety level.
i DO have anxiety problems, anyone who's been in a car with me would understand that. gripping the seat, clenching my teeth, praying to get home safe.
so well see.
i do understand that i am polluting my body with a chemical and i can't think that i will feel completely normal, becauyse thats what i don't want to feel is "normal" thats the whole problem, what i consider normal is effecting those around me in a bad way.
so i think a little upsert tummy is ok if i can finally not want to beat my kids finally not cry at everything, and finally be who i can be.
..and if i can be skinnier, thats a plus too.
so.
2 weeks on this and i'll make a decision on wether to continue or find another opinion.
on another note:
Potter book 5 is getting good.
Slovak chocolate is so yummy, i love oplatky.
so here is what up.
i had a midnight snack and took it then, thinking that it was a good idea to take it before bed, that way i could sleep through some of the symptoms
well i woke up at 5am, lying in bed, wide awake.
comfortable, but just not sleepy.
i laid there for awhile and at some point i finally fell asleep, but as soon as the alarm clock went off at 715 i was awake. wide awake, and i didn't want to be...so i got up and made Jozef some lunch to take with him as usual, and kissed him off to work.
i went and laid back down and ended up falling back to sleep until the kids finally woke up, at that point i turned on the tv and waited until they wanted out, which wasn't all that long.
then its been normal day.
as far as effects from these pills....
well i feel a little weird, my teeth are all wanting to be clenched like when you trip on lsd, and i have a bit of that fuzzy ephedrine feeling accompanied by the occasional need for a deep sigh, and my stomach feels like doo doo.
but i know they say you don't feel any effects for 2 weeks, but i do feel "something" different...i feel more calm, like i am not ready to lash out. i do feel a bit more patient...i can't explain it, and it doesn't make sense after not even been on it for 24 hours.
but shit, even if its a placebo effect, its working. i guess the real test is when it hits about 6pm, the usual freak out time for me....
you and another thing is i think there are people who are depressed for different reasons, some stem from childhood trauma, some stem from low self-confidence, and some truly are a medicaly diseased, the off balance of the seritonin and norepinephrine. these balance depression and anxiety, some people don't feel they have any anxiety problems, and in those cases sopmething like Effexor XR wouldn't be good for them, because it will change that anxiety level.
i DO have anxiety problems, anyone who's been in a car with me would understand that. gripping the seat, clenching my teeth, praying to get home safe.
so well see.
i do understand that i am polluting my body with a chemical and i can't think that i will feel completely normal, becauyse thats what i don't want to feel is "normal" thats the whole problem, what i consider normal is effecting those around me in a bad way.
so i think a little upsert tummy is ok if i can finally not want to beat my kids finally not cry at everything, and finally be who i can be.
..and if i can be skinnier, thats a plus too.
so.
2 weeks on this and i'll make a decision on wether to continue or find another opinion.
on another note:
Potter book 5 is getting good.
Slovak chocolate is so yummy, i love oplatky.