I know I may be young, but I got feelings too
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
I can't afford to let this whole thing distract me anymore. I know it's all my fault but sometimes I really want to be a mean bitch you know. I want to ruin what you have like how you ruined mine. If I don't cut you out from my life, if I don't cut some people out from my life, I might just do myself more injustice. I think I've brought about quite a fair bit of pain to myself already, and it's about time I try to detach myself away from that bitterness and self-pity. Maybe I should have fought for it in the beginning, fight for what I want, like how you are fighting for what you want, despite the consequences. Since the beginning, I only thought of what you want, and not my own. Even till now, despite everything, I still want the same for you. I have to admit this though, once I receive the final blow, I will make you disappear from my life. Or make myself disappear. What does not kill you makes you stronger. It has been tough, and it will probably be worse in the next few weeks, but I think I'll be fine. I'll be okay.
Three more months to A Levels. The stress and the workload is piling up.
My parents aren't giving me a good time either.
One step at a time.
I can't afford to let this whole thing distract me anymore. I know it's all my fault but sometimes I really want to be a mean bitch you know. I want to ruin what you have like how you ruined mine. If I don't cut you out from my life, if I don't cut some people out from my life, I might just do myself more injustice. I think I've brought about quite a fair bit of pain to myself already, and it's about time I try to detach myself away from that bitterness and self-pity. Maybe I should have fought for it in the beginning, fight for what I want, like how you are fighting for what you want, despite the consequences. Since the beginning, I only thought of what you want, and not my own. Even till now, despite everything, I still want the same for you. I have to admit this though, once I receive the final blow, I will make you disappear from my life. Or make myself disappear. What does not kill you makes you stronger. It has been tough, and it will probably be worse in the next few weeks, but I think I'll be fine. I'll be okay.
Three more months to A Levels. The stress and the workload is piling up.
My parents aren't giving me a good time either.
One step at a time.