Stuck between a rock and a hard place...
i really don't want summer to end because i wont get to see Andrew as much (once a month, if that), and i'd miss my family (ie, Ted, Liz, Megs...), but i can not take living here anymore. i made more money being a student then i do at this job. i'm also still having a hard time adjusting to living with just dad. i want to help him so much, but he is causing more damage than i can pick up after. he is so damn difficult too. however, i will get through this... i will...
anyway, this summer has made me feel sort of useless. i just go about my days with little variation. its just so redundant. only lately have i felt even a smidge needed. of course, the help usually goes to my sister but i enjoy helping people, even family. other than that, i do the same thing every day. not helping, not hindering... just there.
now, as for the account of my last few days (or week rather), i've been well, working, interrupted by small enjoyable things. for example, seeing Andrew and having him leave me a really sweet note on my car when i was having a bad day at work. just as i got out to my car i found the note in my windshield wiper. so sweet! also, there was a party out at Sean's place. he seems really happy so i'm glad for him. Ted and i got to do some hanging out which was nice. Ted has been a great help to my mental health. so thanks Ted. um, been to the movies with Andrew, so that was fun. oh, i got a $5 tv for my room, so now i can watch movies in my room. my overall goal is to be mostly independent in my room. its working so far. um, got to see my nefew and niece. it was Melissa's birthday yesterday. its nice seeing those kids. meh, sorry about the scrambled thoughts...
so, coming up, i have my one year anniversary with Andrew on Monday. we have dinner planned and it sounds like its going to be a lot of fun. :) now... to just get dad out of the house...
damn my mind is bleh.
anyway, this summer has made me feel sort of useless. i just go about my days with little variation. its just so redundant. only lately have i felt even a smidge needed. of course, the help usually goes to my sister but i enjoy helping people, even family. other than that, i do the same thing every day. not helping, not hindering... just there.
now, as for the account of my last few days (or week rather), i've been well, working, interrupted by small enjoyable things. for example, seeing Andrew and having him leave me a really sweet note on my car when i was having a bad day at work. just as i got out to my car i found the note in my windshield wiper. so sweet! also, there was a party out at Sean's place. he seems really happy so i'm glad for him. Ted and i got to do some hanging out which was nice. Ted has been a great help to my mental health. so thanks Ted. um, been to the movies with Andrew, so that was fun. oh, i got a $5 tv for my room, so now i can watch movies in my room. my overall goal is to be mostly independent in my room. its working so far. um, got to see my nefew and niece. it was Melissa's birthday yesterday. its nice seeing those kids. meh, sorry about the scrambled thoughts...
so, coming up, i have my one year anniversary with Andrew on Monday. we have dinner planned and it sounds like its going to be a lot of fun. :) now... to just get dad out of the house...
damn my mind is bleh.