Life goes on
It has been quite awhile since i felt this demoralised. It's more than just negative thoughts filling up my mind. Seems like i have lost the confidence i had, entirely.
An uncle at work once told me ; dont scold your child too much, scolding loses their confidence. I guess the same applies to adults as well. I am losing myself. I am trying to be a good mom, a better wife. But i am really mentally drained and physically worn out. Everything i do, i get a negative comment. Each time i thought i did fine, i get feedback which makes me feel like crap after. Why? Why do you have to do this to me? Why is my life so tough? I always tell myself - better days will come. Hang on! Am i wrong to want to live on our own? Is it a impossible thing that i have asked for? Am i being unreasonable? Why are you making me feel as though i am a wicked witch that's asking for the world? I have no expectations, i have no demands. I just wish to have a home of our own for our family. I want to be that mom who wakes up and prepare breakfast for my kids before they go to sch, packs their snackboxes for reccess, cooks dinner and do homework with them when I'm able to. I want to be that mom who is their alarm clock for school and their handbook at home. I want my kids to be proud of their mom and tell their friends, "my mommy made this!" And not "my ah ma made this." Am i wrong...?
Why do you always bring up this house issue and reprimand me? What wrong have i done?
An uncle at work once told me ; dont scold your child too much, scolding loses their confidence. I guess the same applies to adults as well. I am losing myself. I am trying to be a good mom, a better wife. But i am really mentally drained and physically worn out. Everything i do, i get a negative comment. Each time i thought i did fine, i get feedback which makes me feel like crap after. Why? Why do you have to do this to me? Why is my life so tough? I always tell myself - better days will come. Hang on! Am i wrong to want to live on our own? Is it a impossible thing that i have asked for? Am i being unreasonable? Why are you making me feel as though i am a wicked witch that's asking for the world? I have no expectations, i have no demands. I just wish to have a home of our own for our family. I want to be that mom who wakes up and prepare breakfast for my kids before they go to sch, packs their snackboxes for reccess, cooks dinner and do homework with them when I'm able to. I want to be that mom who is their alarm clock for school and their handbook at home. I want my kids to be proud of their mom and tell their friends, "my mommy made this!" And not "my ah ma made this." Am i wrong...?
Why do you always bring up this house issue and reprimand me? What wrong have i done?