So. Tired.
It's not the lack of sleep, I'm actually doing better in the sleeping department these days. I wouldn't mind sleeping in a little more, but that's not the problem.
It's not the wet, heavy weather. It is true I am not fond of rain; I know my flowers and shrubs are grateful, but my clicking ankles and twisted fingers are not. But that's not the problem.
If it's anything, I'd guess it's looking across the weeks and not seeing a day to call my own until September 9th. Until that day, I am either working, or running after the schoolboard on N's behalf. Labour Day I am doing neither, but it's such a fraught "make family time" day in my Mother's world that it never feels much like a holiday to me. I expect it's a hold-over from when she was teaching, and felt she had to "make the best" of the last day before school began.
I'm just so tired of watching the clock and thinking "I have so much time before I have to leave for X, Y, Z destiation/task/meeting." I'd like to look at the clock and think "I don't have anything to do today."
...but that's all the time I have to think about that right now. I have to be at work in 2hrs 15mins and first I must get a load of laundry done, have breakfast, and shower. Gah. Need more time :
It's not the wet, heavy weather. It is true I am not fond of rain; I know my flowers and shrubs are grateful, but my clicking ankles and twisted fingers are not. But that's not the problem.
If it's anything, I'd guess it's looking across the weeks and not seeing a day to call my own until September 9th. Until that day, I am either working, or running after the schoolboard on N's behalf. Labour Day I am doing neither, but it's such a fraught "make family time" day in my Mother's world that it never feels much like a holiday to me. I expect it's a hold-over from when she was teaching, and felt she had to "make the best" of the last day before school began.
I'm just so tired of watching the clock and thinking "I have so much time before I have to leave for X, Y, Z destiation/task/meeting." I'd like to look at the clock and think "I don't have anything to do today."
...but that's all the time I have to think about that right now. I have to be at work in 2hrs 15mins and first I must get a load of laundry done, have breakfast, and shower. Gah. Need more time :