Sadness but it's okay. And kissing.
I'm okay. Just okay but I'm okay with just feeling okay. Because I feel done with denying my emotions or being critical of them. But the difference is even as I feel heartbroken (still, yes) on occasion, it doesn't have to encompass everything I feel. And I still feel like the world is a very interesting place. I am more able to laugh at my life and the world than I used to be. Sure, I'm a little sad at the moment but at the same time I also love that I'm alive, I'm glad I'm alive and can feel sadness. Somehow I am feeling more in touch with my feelings than before. Less afraid of them. And I feel when I acknowledge the feelings of sadness and don't immediately try to make them go away, they don't stay for too long anyway. When the feelings are ignored, they keep wanting to be noticed and keep trying to affect me. I can acknowledge simultaneous sadness and contentness with life anyway.
I kissed a guy last night. He messaged me on the dating website. We met at The Eagle (a pub) and when it closed just after 11pm, we decided to walk around the river. It looked quite different at night with a bit of fog. It was rather spooky, in a fun way. Near the end we found a small walking bridge. The next bridge was reflecting beautifully in the water. And we kissed. It felt romantic. And he was really good. It was lovely really. I will probably see him Friday.
I kissed a guy last night. He messaged me on the dating website. We met at The Eagle (a pub) and when it closed just after 11pm, we decided to walk around the river. It looked quite different at night with a bit of fog. It was rather spooky, in a fun way. Near the end we found a small walking bridge. The next bridge was reflecting beautifully in the water. And we kissed. It felt romantic. And he was really good. It was lovely really. I will probably see him Friday.