Lightbulb Moment...
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I have realized today, through talking with various people that both know myself and the offending party (the one who refuses to remove me from her friend's list), that there must be something psychologically wrong with this woman. She doesn't want me as a friend - and she's made that painfully obvious not only by her own words, but by her actions and how she attempts to spread gossip. She says that I'm a bitch, that I'm self-absorbed, that I treat people horribly, and all the associations of a Monster personality that go along with it. So why the need to list me as a friend? I find the whole thing hypocritical - she hates my guts but wants to keep me on her friend's list?!! I think that she is trying to fulfill some sick psychological need in doing this. There must very fundamentally whacked out shit in her own life creating a huge unhappiness factor, that she would continue doing this. How else would you explain it?? Why should I have to lock my journal to "Friend's Only"? Why am I being "punished"? That's why I'm irritated. I could care less if she wants to read my LJ on an hourly basis, but don't list me as a friend when it's so painfully obvious that we aren't.
I'll take my friend's advice and go through her *LOCKED* LJ entries and make them public. I mean shit, if I'm in there, why not abuse it? Maybe that way she'll get the fucking clue that I want her to leave me the fuck alone. Childish? Sure, but I can't list in great detail anymore that this whole thing could easily be resolved with a quick click of the mouse in "Manage Friends". And while many people feel the need to tell me how mean I'm being to her, let me point this out: I tried being friends with her. I really really tried. Sure, I wasn't a nice person a few years ago (also when most of her friends met me). I've never hidden that fact and I'm doing what I can to be happy. But it does NOT discount the numerous backstabs I've received. It doesn't negate the fact that I've asked her numerous times to unfriend me, to leave me alone, and that what she has done was not ok. I'm at the point this very second where I don't care what I say nor how I say it. I'm done being nice. I will continue being mean or being a "bitch" because I want her to leave me alone and unfriend me. I'm done with trying to walk on egg shells around her and her feelings. I'm going to be nasty and I'm going to continue being a cunt. I have that right and quite frankly I'm tired of people acting like she's a god and that she's done absolutely nothing wrong to me. (Also if she responded to email this also wouldn't be an issue on LJ but she doesn't).
OH and apparently she doesn't like confrontation which makes no sense to me at all at how this whole thing keeps her needs met.
I have realized today, through talking with various people that both know myself and the offending party (the one who refuses to remove me from her friend's list), that there must be something psychologically wrong with this woman. She doesn't want me as a friend - and she's made that painfully obvious not only by her own words, but by her actions and how she attempts to spread gossip. She says that I'm a bitch, that I'm self-absorbed, that I treat people horribly, and all the associations of a Monster personality that go along with it. So why the need to list me as a friend? I find the whole thing hypocritical - she hates my guts but wants to keep me on her friend's list?!! I think that she is trying to fulfill some sick psychological need in doing this. There must very fundamentally whacked out shit in her own life creating a huge unhappiness factor, that she would continue doing this. How else would you explain it?? Why should I have to lock my journal to "Friend's Only"? Why am I being "punished"? That's why I'm irritated. I could care less if she wants to read my LJ on an hourly basis, but don't list me as a friend when it's so painfully obvious that we aren't.
I'll take my friend's advice and go through her *LOCKED* LJ entries and make them public. I mean shit, if I'm in there, why not abuse it? Maybe that way she'll get the fucking clue that I want her to leave me the fuck alone. Childish? Sure, but I can't list in great detail anymore that this whole thing could easily be resolved with a quick click of the mouse in "Manage Friends". And while many people feel the need to tell me how mean I'm being to her, let me point this out: I tried being friends with her. I really really tried. Sure, I wasn't a nice person a few years ago (also when most of her friends met me). I've never hidden that fact and I'm doing what I can to be happy. But it does NOT discount the numerous backstabs I've received. It doesn't negate the fact that I've asked her numerous times to unfriend me, to leave me alone, and that what she has done was not ok. I'm at the point this very second where I don't care what I say nor how I say it. I'm done being nice. I will continue being mean or being a "bitch" because I want her to leave me alone and unfriend me. I'm done with trying to walk on egg shells around her and her feelings. I'm going to be nasty and I'm going to continue being a cunt. I have that right and quite frankly I'm tired of people acting like she's a god and that she's done absolutely nothing wrong to me. (Also if she responded to email this also wouldn't be an issue on LJ but she doesn't).
OH and apparently she doesn't like confrontation which makes no sense to me at all at how this whole thing keeps her needs met.