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things that are bothering me, pretty boring stuff here. i worked my ass off to get where i am in life right now but im really just been stuck in this r. kelly mindset lately as far as getting out of my ghetto ass addicted world and into the one im in was like a fantasy. and i made it happen and now all i have are my ghetto memories and i do feel like i would give IT ALL up for just one more of those moments or days. One more trip to san francisco, one more night of nutella, one more theme party, or two more so i can always remember that everythings already been done. One more band crashing at eva's, one more bottle of arbor mist with Andrew, One more cool thrift store with great deals, one more italian dinner. I struggle every day here....It's a blessing that i know i only have 6 more weeks until i get deployed. if it weren't for this deployment i dont know if i would make it in this system of comformity and american hallways that makes me have dreams about people slicing cats into a million pieces and the saying "theres a storm in sacramento killing women and babies" going through my mind. I took 8 tylonel pms lastnight and they didnt even effect me, but probably my liver. Tomorrow is my "fit to fight" test, yay something else for me to fail. time to go to work.