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Morale issues have taken over. must go talk to chaplain cuz i have once again whirl-winded way way to far with peoples futures and emotions and i can't blame anyone but myself. yay. no real friends here yet, just fake ones. oh, well. half the people on my floor are deployed right now, thats lovely. I find myself thinking of times such as driving around santa cruz at 3 in the morning looking for ring pops with Eva talking about decapitated or being in San Fran with Andrew and Lisa listening to horribly good music totally having an awesome time just connecting and reminiscing. i feel like the same person but i feel like those times are all the fucking past and it pisses me off. i think im going to go get some beer since drinking has become a huge coping mechanism. Im actually happy that my room is messy cuz cleaning it will give me something to do. watch out windex. i think i have bronchitis again. Maybe cause i had to walk to work and it was below freezing.