for those of you that were not already aware
i might be an alcoholic. scratch that, i'm an alcoholic. i can't remember the last time i went 16 hours without an alcoholic beverage. like really cannot remember. this week, i went a good 50 hours without one, just to try it, etc. not a very bright idea. i went through with drawls. i only thought about booze the entire time. i started getting dizzy, vomiting. i busted out the vodka and silenced my beast. this means i have a problem, first step is admitting i guess. however, i don't want to fix the problem. not sure what that means. i love alcohol and sometimes i feel incomplete without it. i really don't want to give it up