fanarrrrrrrts (please take the time to read T___T )
well,after i wrote the last post,i started to look for a cyber cafe with a scanner,and i found one,far far faaaar awaaay from my home,that way the owner wont recognize me on the street (if we happen to meet)as the hentai that likes to draw naked man together XD i'd swear he gave me a strange look.
so here they are,and i'm gonna write about them.why i feel the need to explain or justify them,i dont know,but i have to.
so,this is my favorite:muraki and tsuzuki.it has no title,u can name it yourself if you want.i had a model for muraki's body,though originally the guy was dressed,it was very fun to discover the body under the clothes :D i'm in love with that leg XD it's very sexy.
this idea comes from a long time ago,inspired (again and again)by
lyrebird(my muse)'s fic,chapter ...8 maybe? i dont remember very well,i should check,but i remember that tsuzuki,after having sex with muraki,lay in bed with him and thought that that felt more like a betrayal than everything else they've done together,and i wanted to draw that,but turned like this ,almost completely different *shrugs* but i dont care,i really like this.it's kind of sweet :D
complains (because i have to):....none,really ...maybe i'm a bit annoyed that tsu's body looks much smaller than muraki's.
so lyrebird,this is for you ( i even did the scars on muraki's body).
this one is a mirage of blaze fanart,inspired maybe by
asphodel's hard work at translating the novels,so this is for her,i hope it'll inspired her to continue :)
this image is not a 'situation' (2 guys sitting together on a beach),but a metaphor(?).i dont know how to explain it,and the problem it's not my english,i dont even know how to explain it to myself ,though i understand it(??).this was suppose to be a 'takaya' fanart,i dont know why i included naoe,i kind of regret it,but it's done.for what i read in tiny bits of translation,i know that the sea is very important to takaya/kagetora,he mentions it very often:when he remembers his brother ("Saburo, take a good look. That is the sea of the Hojo. Etch it into your mind,
so that you can always remember it when you close your eyes. This is your home.
You don't need to restrain yourself. This sea will always be waiting for you." from the novel 'gunjou',translated by
insaneneko),on vol 33 he tells naoe :"let's live
together. A place that's windy, and where we can see the sea would be nice." translated by
ayatsujik.and i could mention more examples,and the anime has lots.i feel the sea ,the view of it,makes him feel at peace,at home,relaxed,things that it seems he cant always(or never) have.what am i trying to say?i dont know.i think this fanart represents takaya and naoe after they die (naoe eventually has to die,he cant live forever and ever,right?),thats why they're naked (no other reason,really),in a kind of 'heaven',or what would be heaven for them,and only kami knows who much they deserve it.why do i have to complicate things all the time??!;__;anyway,i hope i did a good job with the sea,i never painted it before,so i wasnt sure what i was doing.
complains:i'd like takaya to look more like takaya.
and the last.i wasnt sure about posting it,cos i dont like it,at all.i almost hate it,cos i worked a lot on it,and i still dont like tatsumi's expression,tsuzuki's face,but mainly,cos it's so DULL,everything about it is dull,even the situation.while i was doing it i was thinking "why cant i make tsuzuki to throw the champagne down tatsumi's body,so he can lick it off?",but no,i had to make the dullest fanart ever made T__T i didnt throw it off i guess ,cos i like the way the bodies and the clothes look,i worked hard on them too,and they look ok.the only thing that saved this fanart was adding that effect that darkens the borders and gives it more volume (an effect that i cant stop using,i love how it looks,i used it for the 3 fanarts).*sigh*oh ,i forgot ,this is a 'happy b(elated) day' for tsuzuki,thats why they'r celebrating....how i hate it.
there's a conflict between the way i'd like to draw,the way i do it,and the result i want to get.i always wanted to draw in a realistic way,not a "manganime" way.i love classic art,and thats what i'd like to do.but when i do fanarts it's difficult,cos if i draw the characters in a realistic way,they dont look anymore like the original charas,so they'r no longer recognizable,and if they'r not,it's like it's not a fanart anymore.does it make sense?at first,i was so influenced by anime and manga,that my style went that way;but lately,i'm going the way i want to (realistic style),but i get frustrated ,cos i fear people wont recognize the characters,and the purpose of doing a fanart would be lost(for me).on the first fanart,i dont think muraki looks like muraki,tsu looks a bit like the original because of the hair,if it werent for that,he wouldnt.naoe looks like naoe cos i drew him in a 'manganime' style without intending to,but takaya doesnt look at all the takaya we know.tatsumi looks a bit like him cos of the hair again (the hair does the man?O_o),and tsu too.or maybe i see the similarities cos i drew them knowing who i was doing.(ugh,i think i need an aspirin ;__;)of course i'll continue to do things the way i want to despite what people may think,but the conflict still exists in my head.i guess i cant make it easy for me --;
so here they are,and i'm gonna write about them.why i feel the need to explain or justify them,i dont know,but i have to.
so,this is my favorite:muraki and tsuzuki.it has no title,u can name it yourself if you want.i had a model for muraki's body,though originally the guy was dressed,it was very fun to discover the body under the clothes :D i'm in love with that leg XD it's very sexy.
this idea comes from a long time ago,inspired (again and again)by
lyrebird(my muse)'s fic,chapter ...8 maybe? i dont remember very well,i should check,but i remember that tsuzuki,after having sex with muraki,lay in bed with him and thought that that felt more like a betrayal than everything else they've done together,and i wanted to draw that,but turned like this ,almost completely different *shrugs* but i dont care,i really like this.it's kind of sweet :D
complains (because i have to):....none,really ...maybe i'm a bit annoyed that tsu's body looks much smaller than muraki's.
so lyrebird,this is for you ( i even did the scars on muraki's body).
this one is a mirage of blaze fanart,inspired maybe by
asphodel's hard work at translating the novels,so this is for her,i hope it'll inspired her to continue :)
this image is not a 'situation' (2 guys sitting together on a beach),but a metaphor(?).i dont know how to explain it,and the problem it's not my english,i dont even know how to explain it to myself ,though i understand it(??).this was suppose to be a 'takaya' fanart,i dont know why i included naoe,i kind of regret it,but it's done.for what i read in tiny bits of translation,i know that the sea is very important to takaya/kagetora,he mentions it very often:when he remembers his brother ("Saburo, take a good look. That is the sea of the Hojo. Etch it into your mind,
so that you can always remember it when you close your eyes. This is your home.
You don't need to restrain yourself. This sea will always be waiting for you." from the novel 'gunjou',translated by
insaneneko),on vol 33 he tells naoe :"let's live
together. A place that's windy, and where we can see the sea would be nice." translated by
ayatsujik.and i could mention more examples,and the anime has lots.i feel the sea ,the view of it,makes him feel at peace,at home,relaxed,things that it seems he cant always(or never) have.what am i trying to say?i dont know.i think this fanart represents takaya and naoe after they die (naoe eventually has to die,he cant live forever and ever,right?),thats why they're naked (no other reason,really),in a kind of 'heaven',or what would be heaven for them,and only kami knows who much they deserve it.why do i have to complicate things all the time??!;__;anyway,i hope i did a good job with the sea,i never painted it before,so i wasnt sure what i was doing.
complains:i'd like takaya to look more like takaya.
and the last.i wasnt sure about posting it,cos i dont like it,at all.i almost hate it,cos i worked a lot on it,and i still dont like tatsumi's expression,tsuzuki's face,but mainly,cos it's so DULL,everything about it is dull,even the situation.while i was doing it i was thinking "why cant i make tsuzuki to throw the champagne down tatsumi's body,so he can lick it off?",but no,i had to make the dullest fanart ever made T__T i didnt throw it off i guess ,cos i like the way the bodies and the clothes look,i worked hard on them too,and they look ok.the only thing that saved this fanart was adding that effect that darkens the borders and gives it more volume (an effect that i cant stop using,i love how it looks,i used it for the 3 fanarts).*sigh*oh ,i forgot ,this is a 'happy b(elated) day' for tsuzuki,thats why they'r celebrating....how i hate it.
there's a conflict between the way i'd like to draw,the way i do it,and the result i want to get.i always wanted to draw in a realistic way,not a "manganime" way.i love classic art,and thats what i'd like to do.but when i do fanarts it's difficult,cos if i draw the characters in a realistic way,they dont look anymore like the original charas,so they'r no longer recognizable,and if they'r not,it's like it's not a fanart anymore.does it make sense?at first,i was so influenced by anime and manga,that my style went that way;but lately,i'm going the way i want to (realistic style),but i get frustrated ,cos i fear people wont recognize the characters,and the purpose of doing a fanart would be lost(for me).on the first fanart,i dont think muraki looks like muraki,tsu looks a bit like the original because of the hair,if it werent for that,he wouldnt.naoe looks like naoe cos i drew him in a 'manganime' style without intending to,but takaya doesnt look at all the takaya we know.tatsumi looks a bit like him cos of the hair again (the hair does the man?O_o),and tsu too.or maybe i see the similarities cos i drew them knowing who i was doing.(ugh,i think i need an aspirin ;__;)of course i'll continue to do things the way i want to despite what people may think,but the conflict still exists in my head.i guess i cant make it easy for me --;