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ok, what happened to those, can't eat can't sleep days of nothing but love? i don't know but i'm getting very frusterated and bored in my life. i don't make enough cash which inspired me to go take a test at wayne county comm. college, and the test inspired me not to want to ever take tests again. i forgot how much i hated it. so then i decided i want to go to beauty college and get my hair, nails and makeup license, but then i'll have to quit my job and i really like it, i like the children and teaching piano, and candice is there so that's cool, and there's other people that i like, but it's like i can't live on the pay, besides piano money which is good. so i had to think of somthing else i enjoy. i haven't been on the same page with dave for a while it seems. we never used to argue, and we always had fun, but it seems like we're going in 2 diff. directions. we were going to get married this july, and he put down $300 deposit non refundable for the heritage park chapel, and then i decided to call it off for reasons i don't want to make public, not like anyone reads my journal anyways, but still...so now i'm not myself. and he's at his dad's doing laundry and i'm sitting at my mom and dad's, and it's been like this almost every weekend. i won't let him smoke in the house so he sits in the garage all night and watches tv. i'm so exhausted from working 7:00 - 6:00 everyday i'm up for 2 hours and then i go to sleep anyway, but i would like to see him in that 2 hours but he'd rather smoke i guess, which i HATE. i just don't want to live my life in this pattern u know.