one of THOSE 'those nights'
last night was interesting...even after having been up for well over 24 hours i couldn't manage to sleep no matter what i tried. i did briefly crash out for less than an hour, then it seemed like everyone started trying to call me. i had to give up on sleep.
this wasn't a bad thing, as i am by far no stranger to insomnia, but it was one of those nights where something set my mind off and it wouldn't stop racing no matter what. even trying to read the book would remind me of something that'd remind me of something and i'd suddenly realize the last two or three paragraphs had gone in one eye and out the other as i'd been off in thought. i finally had to give up and just lay there and think. (this is fairly normal for me, especially if i've been kinda avoiding thinking something over) it's not like i was gifted with the wisdom of the cosmos or anything, but there was definatly a sense of serene clarity to it. y'know like when you finally managed to push down your emotions enough to step back from a situation and turn the lights on to really have a good look at it. or maybe more like pulling your head far enough outta the sand to finally see what you always knew was there. or something like that.
one way or another i now start today with a refreshed sense of confidence and understanding. the world and still my oyster, and oysters are still aphrodesiacs.
(heh, i'm writing that one down)
this wasn't a bad thing, as i am by far no stranger to insomnia, but it was one of those nights where something set my mind off and it wouldn't stop racing no matter what. even trying to read the book would remind me of something that'd remind me of something and i'd suddenly realize the last two or three paragraphs had gone in one eye and out the other as i'd been off in thought. i finally had to give up and just lay there and think. (this is fairly normal for me, especially if i've been kinda avoiding thinking something over) it's not like i was gifted with the wisdom of the cosmos or anything, but there was definatly a sense of serene clarity to it. y'know like when you finally managed to push down your emotions enough to step back from a situation and turn the lights on to really have a good look at it. or maybe more like pulling your head far enough outta the sand to finally see what you always knew was there. or something like that.
one way or another i now start today with a refreshed sense of confidence and understanding. the world and still my oyster, and oysters are still aphrodesiacs.
(heh, i'm writing that one down)