Well we're moving on up...
So there are only 2 weeks left until I move my place of residence to an apartment. I will still be responsible for my half of the mortgage on the house until it sells, but I will be out of the horribly uncomfortable silence/gestalt of the house. I am moving to an apartment house that is owned by a fellow pagan and is a great deal for the rent. I will still be in proximity to the house, and the landlord doesn't mind my large dog. As a matter of fact, she is a dog owner herself.
This is going to be a lot of work to get myself packed and moved and still have time to return to help deal with the house, but I think that for T and my sanity it will be the best thing. This accompanied by the convenience of only having one dog on the property when the house is being shown will be a huge plus. Our one dog, Eddie, can be kenneled if we know that a realtor will be showing the house where as my dog which I will be taking with me is too elderly to handle the stress of having strangers entering his house.
The sanity factor is the real blessing, I will, once again, have a place to go and unwind and find sanctuary. Right now, the energy in the house is so uncomfortable that it is not a place that I love to be. There is little conversation between T and I, and I feel like I am an unwelcomed guest in my home at the moment. T probably is feeling the same way, and it isn't good for either of us. I think that this, though expensive, is the best option for us both.
In regard to the apartment, it has 2 bedrooms, one bath, with washer and dryer, 950 sq ft and is only $550! Talk about the gods stepping in and providing a path! Not to mention that I will be living next door to another pagan (who is my landlord) who will not mind if I paint or install ceiling fans etc. For the money, it cannot be beat here in Phoenix. The neighborhood is so so, but I have certainly lived in much worse. I would feel comfortable walking in the neighborhood at night, so it isn't too bad. I guess I will just have to brush off those warding skills and do a little work on my car, doors and windows. :)
It was very strange to deconstruct my temple in my home and to begin the process of painting over all the work I had done on the walls. One of my coven sibs came over last weekend and we ritually deconstructed the energy of the space. Even as I sit here writing this, with 2/3 of the walls painted, the space seems hollow by comparison. I certainly wouldn't want any new owners being confronted by an elemental left behind, but it is amazing how comforting their presences were and how I unaware I was of their subtle effect on the space until they are absent. Guess you don't know that you got til it's gone? I guess I had only paid attention to their influence when I had specifically invoked them during ritual. I do, of course, know that they are present whether we call them or not, and that they simply have less power to interact with mundane "reality", but I guess I had little experience with being without them. My coven sib and I did a very thorough cleansing and banishing of the space after the temple was deconstructed and any energy had been grounded, so there is very little left here but the smell of fresh paint, the sight of bare walls and the soft whir of the ceiling fan. Strange indeed.
My move will not effect my LJ, but for those of you who have my personal email addy, I will be sending out an email with the new email address. My apartment does not receive service from my current cable internet provider and so will change my email address. For those of you who know me well enough and have my phone numbers, the cell will be my only phone after the 1st of June. The land line at the house will be disconnected.
This is going to be a lot of work to get myself packed and moved and still have time to return to help deal with the house, but I think that for T and my sanity it will be the best thing. This accompanied by the convenience of only having one dog on the property when the house is being shown will be a huge plus. Our one dog, Eddie, can be kenneled if we know that a realtor will be showing the house where as my dog which I will be taking with me is too elderly to handle the stress of having strangers entering his house.
The sanity factor is the real blessing, I will, once again, have a place to go and unwind and find sanctuary. Right now, the energy in the house is so uncomfortable that it is not a place that I love to be. There is little conversation between T and I, and I feel like I am an unwelcomed guest in my home at the moment. T probably is feeling the same way, and it isn't good for either of us. I think that this, though expensive, is the best option for us both.
In regard to the apartment, it has 2 bedrooms, one bath, with washer and dryer, 950 sq ft and is only $550! Talk about the gods stepping in and providing a path! Not to mention that I will be living next door to another pagan (who is my landlord) who will not mind if I paint or install ceiling fans etc. For the money, it cannot be beat here in Phoenix. The neighborhood is so so, but I have certainly lived in much worse. I would feel comfortable walking in the neighborhood at night, so it isn't too bad. I guess I will just have to brush off those warding skills and do a little work on my car, doors and windows. :)
It was very strange to deconstruct my temple in my home and to begin the process of painting over all the work I had done on the walls. One of my coven sibs came over last weekend and we ritually deconstructed the energy of the space. Even as I sit here writing this, with 2/3 of the walls painted, the space seems hollow by comparison. I certainly wouldn't want any new owners being confronted by an elemental left behind, but it is amazing how comforting their presences were and how I unaware I was of their subtle effect on the space until they are absent. Guess you don't know that you got til it's gone? I guess I had only paid attention to their influence when I had specifically invoked them during ritual. I do, of course, know that they are present whether we call them or not, and that they simply have less power to interact with mundane "reality", but I guess I had little experience with being without them. My coven sib and I did a very thorough cleansing and banishing of the space after the temple was deconstructed and any energy had been grounded, so there is very little left here but the smell of fresh paint, the sight of bare walls and the soft whir of the ceiling fan. Strange indeed.
My move will not effect my LJ, but for those of you who have my personal email addy, I will be sending out an email with the new email address. My apartment does not receive service from my current cable internet provider and so will change my email address. For those of you who know me well enough and have my phone numbers, the cell will be my only phone after the 1st of June. The land line at the house will be disconnected.