Guilt trip, don't bother.
What is really getting in under my skin about him is that...he's like two people that aren't aware of each other.
The first, is a loving affectionate Zack who needs me and would do anything. This is the one I see when we hang out, when we're making plans in person...etc. This one knows he needs a job and promises to do anything to get one, this one fills out applications, helps me clean, wants to live with me.
The second, emotionally null. This ass conveniently forgets/denies previously well discussed plans. This one forgets what subjects are a definite no-go with me and refuses to apologize for hurting my feelings (I know I sound like a waaa-boo-hoo right now...but it's the big stuff that he should freaking well know never to mention that he brings up.). This one never wants to visit me, prefers that if we need to see each other, I should be the one to drive over. This one only wants to play his video games and swears he's not addicted to it, often ignoring what's going on around him.
I'm convince now that he is addicted. I don't give two shits what he says, I can verify what I see and hear. Anytime the internet or cable goes out at his house, he's calling, wanting to spend time, wanting to get out of there. When the internet/cable is up though, I practically have to pull him off stark naked to get him to go anywhere. He says he's not addicted, that he doesn't spend much time on it (Denial is usually a big sign that they are.) but miraculously, he can't take time off it to drive up and turn in applications.
I'm the immature one and I'm not ready to marry and I should be so sensitive about promises being made on the heads of family members.
God damn it I'm trying. I really am. I think I need to take my friend Amber's advice and take two weeks without any communication with him. It's going to hurt me, but we need to figure this out. He needs to see what I mean to him and if I don't mean shit to him, do me a huge fucking favor and leave me.
Bottom line: If I'm not worth giving up valuable time for, then break it off with me. I'm just wasting important time with you that could otherwise be used for something that gives a return.
The first, is a loving affectionate Zack who needs me and would do anything. This is the one I see when we hang out, when we're making plans in person...etc. This one knows he needs a job and promises to do anything to get one, this one fills out applications, helps me clean, wants to live with me.
The second, emotionally null. This ass conveniently forgets/denies previously well discussed plans. This one forgets what subjects are a definite no-go with me and refuses to apologize for hurting my feelings (I know I sound like a waaa-boo-hoo right now...but it's the big stuff that he should freaking well know never to mention that he brings up.). This one never wants to visit me, prefers that if we need to see each other, I should be the one to drive over. This one only wants to play his video games and swears he's not addicted to it, often ignoring what's going on around him.
I'm convince now that he is addicted. I don't give two shits what he says, I can verify what I see and hear. Anytime the internet or cable goes out at his house, he's calling, wanting to spend time, wanting to get out of there. When the internet/cable is up though, I practically have to pull him off stark naked to get him to go anywhere. He says he's not addicted, that he doesn't spend much time on it (Denial is usually a big sign that they are.) but miraculously, he can't take time off it to drive up and turn in applications.
I'm the immature one and I'm not ready to marry and I should be so sensitive about promises being made on the heads of family members.
God damn it I'm trying. I really am. I think I need to take my friend Amber's advice and take two weeks without any communication with him. It's going to hurt me, but we need to figure this out. He needs to see what I mean to him and if I don't mean shit to him, do me a huge fucking favor and leave me.
Bottom line: If I'm not worth giving up valuable time for, then break it off with me. I'm just wasting important time with you that could otherwise be used for something that gives a return.