SOOOO excited!
I'm going to the airport in 3 hours! i'm SOOO excited! and i can't sleep even though i'm really tired!
I gave ian his birthday present tonite... i think he liked it... and we had a little game of poker... and i won! finally! I will miss him a lot. He also thinks he has to be 'worried' about me and what i'll do? like honestly. let me just say that if i could go on vacation to cuba while dating josh dean and not cheat... he has NOTHING to worry about. We also decided today that we were officially going out. that's right, mark the 10th on your calender... and then remind me at about that time of the month... b/c i never was too good at that. hah hah.
I'm scared a little of flying. Like, what if my plane crashes? how sad would that be?! I have so many big plans... But if it does... make sure ian knows that i want him to be happy, but i'd rather him die alone than ever talk to laura again - pass it on, thanks! Other than that... i love you all. I will miss school, my guitar, music, my family, friends, parties, food, my mac, clothes.. - oh and ian.
It's so hard to tell someone you love them... - that's my problem, i can't for the life of me say it. I don't know what the big deal is... I do love ian, i just can't tell him for some reason, even though he's told me [recently]... although not tonite - i wonder why?
ok starting to ramble... maybe if i get to mexico i could post? nnnoooo... i'm not that big of a loser! or am i?
I gave ian his birthday present tonite... i think he liked it... and we had a little game of poker... and i won! finally! I will miss him a lot. He also thinks he has to be 'worried' about me and what i'll do? like honestly. let me just say that if i could go on vacation to cuba while dating josh dean and not cheat... he has NOTHING to worry about. We also decided today that we were officially going out. that's right, mark the 10th on your calender... and then remind me at about that time of the month... b/c i never was too good at that. hah hah.
I'm scared a little of flying. Like, what if my plane crashes? how sad would that be?! I have so many big plans... But if it does... make sure ian knows that i want him to be happy, but i'd rather him die alone than ever talk to laura again - pass it on, thanks! Other than that... i love you all. I will miss school, my guitar, music, my family, friends, parties, food, my mac, clothes.. - oh and ian.
It's so hard to tell someone you love them... - that's my problem, i can't for the life of me say it. I don't know what the big deal is... I do love ian, i just can't tell him for some reason, even though he's told me [recently]... although not tonite - i wonder why?
ok starting to ramble... maybe if i get to mexico i could post? nnnoooo... i'm not that big of a loser! or am i?