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O.k. so i am a little depressed right now. today is sunday may 29 and this wednesday will be june 1. anyone ordinary may think, so what? what is so special about june 1st? well, I used to live in a trailer park. In fact i lived there for 13 years, almost my complete childhood. One year ago this wednesday, everyone in the park got sa letter from the office saying that the park has been sold and that every one has to be out in one(1) year. That means this wednesday is the deadline. Fortunutly my parents were able to find a house we could afford in my school district(which, trust me, was not easy) My bestfriend also found a house, but as not as fortunate, and had to switch schools. Most everyone i knew and cared about found a house except for one familly, an i dont know what they are going to do.
As far as i know, on wednesday, the sherif's or whatever, are coming in and deadbolting everyone's doors, and not letting them back in thier houses. What Heartless people! i know it has been a year, but it is a trailer park, people live thier b/c they can't really afford to live anywhere else. A lot of people in thier have debts and mortgages, and cant just get up and leave. It is really depressing to think that in three short days nearly 30 families still living there will be homeless.
Even though i have more emotional attachments than other people, they just dont realize how hard this is for me. I spent almost my entire life there, developed friendships, I HAVE MEMORIES TOO YA KNOW! The people of the city think that the trailer park is decaying and an eyesore to look at, so they must demolish it and build $400,000 houses!?!? It is insane and ruthless, and it makes me pretty upset. (as you can see). I just dont see how it is right in any way, for someone else to take away MY memmories. i wont be able to come back to my childhood nieghborhood when i am an adult, becuase it wont be there. I wont be able to show my children where i grew up, (like my parents did to me) becuase it will be competely different than how it acctually looked when i lived there. i will have to tell my children that there were acctually people that cared so little about my familly and friends, that they demolished my home, which by the way, i am sure will give them so much hope for the world.
Some people just dont realize how important the trailer park is to me. Or maybe they do, and just don't care. Or maybe, i am just someone that no one will ever care about b.c i was not as well off as they are. See, i grew up in a society that ws mostly stuck-up rich people (which is probly why they dont want a trailer park nearby). I spent my chilhood being called trailer trash by the other kids at school. i spent a large portion of my seventh grade year in the counceling office b/c of it. You see, i allways knew that i was different economically than other people because of where i lived, but i didn;t think it would turn out to be such a problem. But, no matter how much of a problem is became, i allways knew that the people that really cared, lived in the trailer park. The ones who really understood, lived in the trailer park... So as you are reading this, you may think: 'i do understand'. but the truth is you will never really understand, unless you have had your childhood destroyed. unledd you can never go back to where you grew up, unless your chilhood neiborhood is or will be a pile of rubish, you will never trully know what i am going through.
i reealize now, that this world is hopeless. Domed for people like me whoa acctually give a shit. I just want everyone to know, that i really trully hate the people who soled the trailer park, and the people who bought it, and the contractors building the houses, and anyone involved in this transaction, and anyone who thinks its no big deal.
i guess that is really all i have to say.
*Sam
As far as i know, on wednesday, the sherif's or whatever, are coming in and deadbolting everyone's doors, and not letting them back in thier houses. What Heartless people! i know it has been a year, but it is a trailer park, people live thier b/c they can't really afford to live anywhere else. A lot of people in thier have debts and mortgages, and cant just get up and leave. It is really depressing to think that in three short days nearly 30 families still living there will be homeless.
Even though i have more emotional attachments than other people, they just dont realize how hard this is for me. I spent almost my entire life there, developed friendships, I HAVE MEMORIES TOO YA KNOW! The people of the city think that the trailer park is decaying and an eyesore to look at, so they must demolish it and build $400,000 houses!?!? It is insane and ruthless, and it makes me pretty upset. (as you can see). I just dont see how it is right in any way, for someone else to take away MY memmories. i wont be able to come back to my childhood nieghborhood when i am an adult, becuase it wont be there. I wont be able to show my children where i grew up, (like my parents did to me) becuase it will be competely different than how it acctually looked when i lived there. i will have to tell my children that there were acctually people that cared so little about my familly and friends, that they demolished my home, which by the way, i am sure will give them so much hope for the world.
Some people just dont realize how important the trailer park is to me. Or maybe they do, and just don't care. Or maybe, i am just someone that no one will ever care about b.c i was not as well off as they are. See, i grew up in a society that ws mostly stuck-up rich people (which is probly why they dont want a trailer park nearby). I spent my chilhood being called trailer trash by the other kids at school. i spent a large portion of my seventh grade year in the counceling office b/c of it. You see, i allways knew that i was different economically than other people because of where i lived, but i didn;t think it would turn out to be such a problem. But, no matter how much of a problem is became, i allways knew that the people that really cared, lived in the trailer park. The ones who really understood, lived in the trailer park... So as you are reading this, you may think: 'i do understand'. but the truth is you will never really understand, unless you have had your childhood destroyed. unledd you can never go back to where you grew up, unless your chilhood neiborhood is or will be a pile of rubish, you will never trully know what i am going through.
i reealize now, that this world is hopeless. Domed for people like me whoa acctually give a shit. I just want everyone to know, that i really trully hate the people who soled the trailer park, and the people who bought it, and the contractors building the houses, and anyone involved in this transaction, and anyone who thinks its no big deal.
i guess that is really all i have to say.
*Sam