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Jun 17, 2004 13:09

have you ever had feelings for someone you didnt know,some one you like talk to in off hand convos but never really got to know each other?and you know that it is nothing more than a silly chrush,but you dont want to give up on it,because in the back of you mind,you are aslways thinking what if,what if i take this risk and something wonerdful happens,or what if somthing bad comes of it,so you play it safe and and you back down,you never know,could all the hurt i feel come because i take to many risk,could it be that sometimes im better off not knowing the ending to that chapter of my life.i dont know,i dont see how it could be,i was talking to some one last night and they were talking about how they dont take that many risk,and they seem so much more,happyier than me ,i guess,i dont know it just got me thinking,maybe if i didnt always lay it on the line,would i have more iner-peace,but what would i do,all i konw how to do is be me,crazy,off the wall,lydia,but i have to think someday i will have to live the quite life,i'll have to be normal,i'll have to give up on all my ideas and conform,something i said i would never do,but know im starting to think,maybe life wouldnt be so hard if i conformed.
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