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so yeah i know this sounds chezzy but (and yes i know many ppl hate this song)i've add one more thing to my "perfect guy list"
and it goes under pluse points- some time in our life he plays crazy town's song butterflys for me.yes i know im a dork you dont have to tell me,but anyhoow,aunt helen just left,yeah she may have gotten over the fact that im not perfect!!!!!and one better,she didnt leave nail marks in my neck agin,that truly made it a good day.i dont know,trying to find some good music to listen to,not finding much.........damn it!!!!!!!sarah has my acid bath cd,it would be the one time i think about it and of course sarah has it.im so blah,theres nothing to do i wish i had somewhere to just go and kick it,i could go to tiffs but shes on her "im a good person,and dont do bad things"kick agin.yeah yeah ive heard this story b4.so i give her till alxe gets out of jail and shes going to be the same tiff she was b4,ohhhhhh well.sarahs at her dads still,but she'll be home by noon.i have weekends when she has to go to her days,then i miss her and feel very sad.im getting that everyones out to get me feeling agin,yesterday i had an acttack.it was the first one i had in a long time but it was really bad,i was helping stacey and nikki with the ball the are having down on the river boat,i had to stop everything i was doing and run to the bath room and splash water on my face and hold my breath and it still wouldnt go away so i had to sit with my head in my lap for like an hour,nikki is on prozac,so she gave me some of hers,the only bad part about that was i had to tell her that i had taken myself off mine,so of course she told me i need to go to the doc and get more then she told my mom the same thing,i told my mom if she did i'd just move out agin and she let it go.i dont know,i really dont care if im on it or not but i want to be the one that says if im on it or not.damn the world -but hey what can you do but get over it and move on.i just wish i was on the road agin,i miss it so much but i like being in one place to,its so much better when you have some 1 to stay for though,DAMN IT LYDIA STOP DAY DREAMING!!!!!IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN,YOUR JUST SETTING YOURSELF UP AGIN!!!!!
and it goes under pluse points- some time in our life he plays crazy town's song butterflys for me.yes i know im a dork you dont have to tell me,but anyhoow,aunt helen just left,yeah she may have gotten over the fact that im not perfect!!!!!and one better,she didnt leave nail marks in my neck agin,that truly made it a good day.i dont know,trying to find some good music to listen to,not finding much.........damn it!!!!!!!sarah has my acid bath cd,it would be the one time i think about it and of course sarah has it.im so blah,theres nothing to do i wish i had somewhere to just go and kick it,i could go to tiffs but shes on her "im a good person,and dont do bad things"kick agin.yeah yeah ive heard this story b4.so i give her till alxe gets out of jail and shes going to be the same tiff she was b4,ohhhhhh well.sarahs at her dads still,but she'll be home by noon.i have weekends when she has to go to her days,then i miss her and feel very sad.im getting that everyones out to get me feeling agin,yesterday i had an acttack.it was the first one i had in a long time but it was really bad,i was helping stacey and nikki with the ball the are having down on the river boat,i had to stop everything i was doing and run to the bath room and splash water on my face and hold my breath and it still wouldnt go away so i had to sit with my head in my lap for like an hour,nikki is on prozac,so she gave me some of hers,the only bad part about that was i had to tell her that i had taken myself off mine,so of course she told me i need to go to the doc and get more then she told my mom the same thing,i told my mom if she did i'd just move out agin and she let it go.i dont know,i really dont care if im on it or not but i want to be the one that says if im on it or not.damn the world -but hey what can you do but get over it and move on.i just wish i was on the road agin,i miss it so much but i like being in one place to,its so much better when you have some 1 to stay for though,DAMN IT LYDIA STOP DAY DREAMING!!!!!IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN,YOUR JUST SETTING YOURSELF UP AGIN!!!!!