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I hate the way I feel right now. I'm out of control more or less. If you feel like visualizing it... it's like I'm made up of tons of tiny little pieces and pieces keep coming off and starting to float away, so I grab for them, but as I'm grabbing for them more pieces break off and float away and I can't catch them all and hold myself together.
I'm in the middle of screwing up my life in the biggest way and it sucks, but I can't do anything about it and neither can nayone around me. I have completely blocked out my mom, and my father tried to act all "well, what are we going to do about this" when he only gets involved when he feels like being a parent and it's ridiculous. I can't talk to my guidance counselor because she's a vacant smiling space filler. I don't know what to do and I'm sick of people acting helpful and understanding when they are far from being either of those things. I need a break, but I can't have a break. Right now I just hate life.
I'm in the middle of screwing up my life in the biggest way and it sucks, but I can't do anything about it and neither can nayone around me. I have completely blocked out my mom, and my father tried to act all "well, what are we going to do about this" when he only gets involved when he feels like being a parent and it's ridiculous. I can't talk to my guidance counselor because she's a vacant smiling space filler. I don't know what to do and I'm sick of people acting helpful and understanding when they are far from being either of those things. I need a break, but I can't have a break. Right now I just hate life.